For You, my God, are greater still.

I'm giving up on that 30 blogs thing. I hope somebody else out there copies it and comes through with it!

It's funny how much I've come to focus on words. Yeah, sure, I have a words of affirmation love language, but it's different.
I get in trouble for my honesty a lot. People tell me "Well-behaved women rarely make history" (thanks, Marilyn Monroe, who was a size 14...making her a modern-day size 8. So if somebody tells you she was huge, tell them they're a liar). Anyway, what about Mother Teresa??? Chew on that!
Uh. Anyway....I get in trouble for my honesty. I've blogged about this before, and people have given me a little pep rally telling me to keep it up. But yesterday, I was on my way out to go to Anthony's, and two people I know were sitting in the hallway. I don't know how it came up, but the guy said "It's funny. In that class (World Lit), whenever you start to say something, everybody listens." I said "I think it's because I'm loud." He said "I don't think so. I think it's because you always have something interesting to say that people may think about, but would rarely say."
And I said thank you. What else could I say? I've never understood how people CAN'T be this way. How can I mute my thoughts because they don't fit a standard? I'm not gonna tell somebody they're ugly or something, but I'm not going to lie.
I was talking to my dad about music and how I'm doing with it lately. Talking helps me organize my thoughts...so I love it when people will just listen and let me get through it. I told him that my favorite people are the people who give me the most criticism. I'm pretty sure I've written about this lately, but hey, this is my blog. You just visit it.
It's gotten to the point where if somebody says something sounds okay, or looked okay, came together okay...I ask why! Not to argue why it should be fantastic or good, but to improve. I don't want to just be okay. I want to be the best I'm capable of. It's taken a lot to get there.
Okay. I'm gonna stop before the rambling gets bad. I love you all. Have a fantastic Valentine's Day, and think of me while I'm working =(.
Actually, I requested to work Monday so I don't have to be distracted by romance and feeling sorry for myself.

Love,
Leah

#1.

I'm kinda taking these as a challenge for my writing. So, at the end of thirty days, we'll see how I am.

1: Name two of the most significant people in your life and explain why.

There are way too many significant people in my life. Seriously. Well, and there are very few that are just significant enough for words to describe. So, I'll try my best.
The first most significant person? Elijah, my older brother. A lot of you know him, and all love him, but that's not the point. he was probably my first friend. I can't remember a time where we fought for more than five minutes, even in the past few years. It just doesn't happen. My mom always told us to be friends, since we'd always be there for each other and that wouldn't (and really couldn't) change. I've always sort of been his sidekick...the robin to his batman, the tails to his sonic, the pink power ranger to his red power ranger. In middle school, he didn't pay uch attention to me in public, though I'm not too sure why. In high school, though, we had a lot of the same friends. We'd go places together, we've had a lot of the same teachers, stuff like that. I've never felt the need to withold information from him, since he usually has some pretty great things to say. We're very honest with each other, to the point where I'll tell him I don't like the girl he's dating, or he thinks I'm overreacting.
Since he's moved out (though he comes back every weekend), I miss him more and more every day. He came home on Friday, and since we had a 3 day week, it felt like eternity since he's been home.
He's the reason I do a lot of what I'm doing now. His guitar was the one I learned on, mostly. I'm probably his biggest fan, and I'm very defensive of him. I love Elijah so much, and he's really shaped me into who I am.

Hmmm...Can I say Jesus for the second one? Well, I'm done writing this subject, so I'll say Jesus. Maybe I'll change it later.

You desired my attention, but denied my afffeeeccttions!

Hello all! I'm gonna do one of these a day for the next thirty days...or at least, I hope I will. So...tomorrow we start with the two most significant people in my life...eep. That's gonna be a hard decision.
Oh, btdubs, I found it on tumblr. So. I give credit where credit is due.

1: Name two of the most significant people in your life and explain why.

2: What is your stance on religon? Would you affiliate yourself with any?

3: What band / musician is most important to you?  Explain why.

4: If you could chose a time period to be born at , which one would it be and why?

5: At what age were you the happiest?

6: Name five things from your wishlist.

7: Do you read? If so, what are your three favorite books and why?

8: If you could live anywhere, where would you live and why?

9: How old do you think you act? Explain.

10: If you could only live off of one food and one beverage for the rest of your days, what would they be?

11: What is your favorite quote? How does it relate to your life?

12: What item of clothing do you wear the most?

13: What can you not live without?

14: Name things that you do every day.

15: Who is someone you admire. Why?

16: If the world were to end tomorrow, what would you do with your remaining time on earth?

17: What do you want to be when you get older? Why did you choose it?

18: If you could meet anyone, living or dead, who would it be? What would you say to them or ask them?

19: What is your favorite film? Why is it so important to you?

20: Would you consider yourself an optimist or a realist? Why?

21: Do you want children? Why or why not?

22: What subject did / do you exceed in / at school?

23: Are you a fan of art? If so, who is your favorite artist? What artistic movement do you prefer?

24: How attractive do you consider yourself?

25: Would you rather date someone plain with an amazing personality or someone beautiful with a plain personality?

26: Choose two: mentally stable, intelligent, attractive. Explain why you chose those two.

27: Which do you prefer: films or television? Why?

28: If you could choose to live forever, would you? Why or why not?

29: Do you wish for anything at 11:11? If so, what do you wish for? Has anything ever come true?

30: What do you imagine your life like at age fifty?

In my Life, Your Will Be Done

I've probably posted a blogpost with this title already....oh well. Hope you aren't redirected to the old one.
I was talking to the lovely Jessica in yoga, about interviews for scholarships for college.
I have no idea what they'll ask me, but Jessica proposed some likely questions that were asked of her. There's no problem answering things like, "Why do you want to attend ORU?"
That's not difficult. But the one question I cannot think of an answer to for the life of me is...
Aside from the information on my resume, transcript, and whatever other paperwork they have on me...what should they know me?
I've been told to say that I'm a go-getter, I'm self-motivated, and I make things happen. I've been told to say that I'm balanced, especially between work, school, church, and whatever else there is!
But I just don't feel at peace about it. I know I'm determined, I know I'm self-motivated, and I know I maintain balance to the best of my ability. SO WHAT?

What makes me different?

Love,
Leah

p.s.-I'm not usually one to ask for comments and leave who I am to other people..but...well....
comments?

Will you create in me a clean heart, O God? Restore in me the joy of my salvation.

I don't have much to say, but I just wanna give you these couple verses. I'm reading Hillsong's "Worship That Moves the Heart of God" blog post, and it's mentioned.


^{Psalm 51: 15-17}

Open my lips, Lord, 

and my mouth will declare Your praise. 

You do not delight in sacrifice, or I would bring it; 

you do not take pleasure in burnt offerings. 

My sacrifice, O God, is a broken spirit; 

a broken and contrite heart 

you, God, will not despise.