What does your newest text say?
Haha thx (from Nick. Because he can't type out whole words, apparently)
Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with an M?
Actually, yeah.
Do you still talk to the person who hurt you the most?
I don't really know who hurt me most, but I think so?
Who was the last person you slept in a bed with?
Handah Banandah.
Do you have any plans for tomorrow?
Lake. Woop de woop.
How many drugs have you done in the last 7 days?
None!
What do you hear right now?
Hillsong
Do you think $30 for a pair of jeans is cheap?
Yeah!
Can you honestly say you're okay?
I can, honestly!
When's the last time you said you were fine, but really weren't?
I don't know. I haven't done that in a while. The last time I can think of is Revolve.
Is there something special you want?
I guess so?
What was the last thing you bought?
sunglasses!
Do you know anyone that smokes pot?
You kinda always know somebody that smokes pot.
Has someone ever spread a nasty rumor about you?
When you go to Core Knowledge, there ARE those rumors.
How are you feeling?
Dandy!
Are you an emotional person?
Oh yeah.
Is there someone you used to talk to everyday but don't anymore?
Yup!
In December were you in a relationship?
I was indeed! Well for the last half of it.
Plans for Saturday?
Hmm....lake.
Will tomorrow be a good day?
Hope so.
Does your last ex have a job?
No, but volunteers like the dickens.
Relationships or one night stands?
Relationships. But really, neither.
If something was wrong, who is the first person you would go to?
Aundi. Or maybe Elijah? Okay wait. I would first go to God, but then Aundi. Maybe Sarah.
If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
Sure.
Do you think you can last in a relationship for three months?
Obviously, since the next person I date will probably be the one I marry.
Could you go out in public looking like you do now?
I already did....?
Who was the last person you held hands with?
I don't remember!
Did you speak with your father today?
Not yet.
Ever felt like you're not good enough?
Yeah, but it's not that I'm not good enough...I just don't fit the bill.
Has anyone upset you in the last week?
Yeah.
What is something you disliked about your day?
I had to wake up early.
How's your heart lately?
functioning!
Are you afraid of losing the last person you talked to in person?
I'm not afraid, I guess? He's my cousin...if I lost him, it'd be like it used to be.
Is anything bothering you?
Yeah
Is there someone that makes you happy every time you see them?
yeah!
Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
I think everybody has at some point.
Do you like when people call you babe?
Not at all.
Do you believe in love?
Yeah.
Will you be in a relationship next month?
Nope
When was the last time you laughed REALLY hard?
Yesterday.
Last missed call?
Mom.
Last person you were on the phone with for more than 20 minutes?
I think it was Sarah Hopp.
Did someone screw you over lately?
Not really.
Is your room ever clean?
Yeah sometimes.
Do you like to cuddle?
Not really? I'm not a physical person. I don't like being all super on top of people.
Next time you will have butterflies?
I don't know!
Do you trust all of your friends?
Not at all.
Are you comfortable with your height?
Eh. I guess.
Will this weekend be good?
yeah!
Does anyone love you?
Jesus does!
6.29.2009
Break my heart for what breaks Yours
Hmmm...I have a whole lot to say. I mean--I usually have a lot to say (obviously), but it's a time where I'm EXTRA-leah.
So I'll have a heaping helping of bullets, please.
I'm going with Lydia to the ortho tomorrow for spacers. She will be thoroughly enjoying herself, I know.
Much love....y'all (I can't get into the whole y'all thing. Georgia isn't meant for me)
-The Always Lovely Leah
Psalm 139:14
So I'll have a heaping helping of bullets, please.
- I miss the 303. I mean, obviously. Considering I've said that like ten times already in the past three blogs
- I watched The Dark Knight last night (that was a pun. insert rickshaw here) and it was FREAKING AWESOME i kept thinking from an actor's standpoint at how EXTREMELY difficult all of those roles would be to play...namely Heath Ledger's. I can understand how the load of that character would actually make you a tad insane. I mean, he was BRILLIANT, but it came at a price. The ultimate price--death.
- I'm sleeping on an extremely cushy (yeah, that's a word. dealsies.) air mattress with my sister. It's...just cushy. Only word. I've fallen off of the corner multiple times
- Sometimes I wish I wasn't the older sister. Most of the time I'm okay with that.
- My cousin Charlie...dear goodness....I ACCIDENTALLY read over his shoulder texting last night, and I kinda found out something I don't wanna know. Likeeee....something about making a girl happy. In her room. late at night. I don't think they were going to play playstation or thumb wrestle. And he went to "band practice" today at like 12. Who plans band at 12? Yet he didn't take anything but himself. He might have not been wearing shoes, even. And Josh got the feeling he was lying, too. He's good at lying to his parents...but he's a horrible liar. And I feel like once I'm with him alone, I'll blurt out "You're a horrible liar" accidentally.
- I mean, dude, lying is a BAD habit. And unlike smoking, drinking, drugs, or sex, you can't just put it down or walk away. You have to essentially change WHO YOU ARE.
- I just hate seeing Charlie go through that. He's a year older than me, sure, and he treats me like I'm 13 , but whatever!
- I've been writing this blog in segments--first after dinner, second after kickball, third after ping-pong.
- Dinner was good. My aunt thinks i'm pretty! It sounds stupid, but that's the kinda thing that makes my day. Not somebody texting me "Yeah you're attractive" but saying that i'm beautiful to my face...especially when I feel the furthest from being beautiful!
- I've been called 14 like ten million times this week. Like people like to think that's how old I am. I guess I REALLY am stuck at 14. In your face Amelia. You actually look 16.
- I felt like writing a deep blog earlier...but now I'm kinda not in the mood.
- But what I've been wanting to say for like the past week and a half--Why has the world stooped so low into the shallowness of what it is today? I mean...I feel like one of the few needles in a hay stack--or better yet, one of the few pieces of straw in a needle stack. The enemy tries to attack us through people, I know that for a FACT. But it seems like I'm fighting multiple battles. I don't look my age (mostly because I don't dress in short skirts and long jackets with orange-chicken tan legs), people walk all over me...the list is endless. I refuse to be shallow. And when I am, I feel pretty bad about it. Like my sarcasm (usually with Tommy) needs some work. When I am sarcastic, I'm like "sorry for the sarcasm. But I really don't appreciate..." and I feel better, I guess.
- Jack Johnson makes me feel all reflective.
- Lydia, my cousin, just slapped my foot. It HURT.
- Charlie, my other cousin I've already mentioned, likes to walk around shirtless. And sleep shirtless. Like while I was playing ping-pong, he was laying in bed, shirtless. If I would've taken a picture, you woulda said "Where'd the girl go? Was she not wearing clothes, too?" because it legitimately looks like there's nothing clothing him!
- I still shudder at the thought of what he was doing during "band practice" *shudder*
- Georgia is hot. I played tag today with my cousins at Wills park or something like that, on this GIANT wooden jungle gym that would've been my dream if I was 7. Anyway. Charlie took off his shirt (surprise, surprise, right?) and showed us where he had his first kiss in 7th grade. Which was cute and sentimental, obviously...but I was kinda thinking "well haven't we come along way compared to today?" but obviously I would NOT have told him that. Anyway. Playing tag...I wiped out twice. I ate it completely. On wood chips. The first one only Elijah saw, but the second one was like HEY EVERYBODY LOOK AT LEAH!
- I stabbed my hand with woodchips. I have battle wounds.
- We decided Lydia was the ultimate loser because she lost in tag. I was the second loser, but they didn't call me that.
- OH another strange thing. My older cousins (17 & 20) listen to the Jonas brothers, Taylor Swift, and Miley Cyrus. Which is EXTREMELY funny to watch...but quite sad. They also like mainstream popular music. Which makes me not like them all that much. Musically, I mean.
- I haven't been reading my Bible to omuch over vacation...and it shows. Ryan was SO right. But everybody and their mother keeps reading out of Acts RIGHT after I finished it. Crazy, right?
- Tommy just totally misinterpreted my text. Oops.
- I'll add more if I think about something and figure I should share it with the world...
I'm going with Lydia to the ortho tomorrow for spacers. She will be thoroughly enjoying herself, I know.
Much love....y'all (I can't get into the whole y'all thing. Georgia isn't meant for me)
-The Always Lovely Leah
Psalm 139:14
6.26.2009
You lived, and You died, and You rose again on high
Well hello 303. I'm in the...I think it's 404. Isn't that weird? Going from 303 to 404. But you can't exactly say that through your fingers, like you can 303.
So. Be watching my twitter (over ---->)
because I have random access to the internet. Until I can get my uncle to give me his wifi password. That'd be nice. So I'll be sending random pictures to my twitter and if you follow me (Kyra), you will get them QUITE often.
Random bullets from the 404!
So. Be watching my twitter (over ---->)
because I have random access to the internet. Until I can get my uncle to give me his wifi password. That'd be nice. So I'll be sending random pictures to my twitter and if you follow me (Kyra), you will get them QUITE often.
Random bullets from the 404!
- There's a bird outside this window that comes back in the morning and evening...and it runs into the window just about eery thirty seconds. It's pretty hilarious. I'd take a video, but when I try to, it leaves. But it'll come back.
- Zoe (the twitter pics I keep sending) is probably the most ADHD dog I've ever met. She's still a puppy, and she's SUPER furry. She's also an Obama dog (like Bo, the portugese water dog that Obama owns). She likes to chase after people and nibble on them. That's when you yell "LEAVE IT"! So...I love this dog. She went swimming in the pool with us yesterday...where we dragged her around on floaties. It's funny. I like to play fetch with her sometimes. I'm still trying to teach her to DROP IT when she gets to me though...I've gotten it to the point that she has to sit before I'll throw it. And if she barks, we're done playing. She'll sit before I tell her to! Mission accomplished. Lat night she was laying on me while I was sitting on the kitchen floor. And then when I'd try to take a picture to document her never-present calmness, she'll flip out like she knows what a camera phone is.
- It's hot. And humid. And I LOVE IT. Compared to Colorado where I heard it rained like the dickens yesterday.
- Tomorrow's our last day staying at this (Uncle Tim's and Aunt Tenley's) house. Then we're going to our other cousins (ones that are more our age), then I think to the lake house. FOR TUBING AND WHATNOT! WOOP DE WOOP!
- I think I've gotten over my missing the 303 recently. I'm still bummed that Pulse band will be playing "Hosanna" the ONE WEEK I'M NOT THERE! That's seriously one of my FAVORITE songs, especially since Aundi's usually the one to sing it, and they pick the week we're gone. URG. But maybe they'll be like "Hey, we should play this more often" after we come back.
- The plane ride was...good? Screaming baby named Serenity. Okay actually, she was almost 2. But...screaming Serenity. If that isn't the biggest oxymoron I've ever heard, I don't know what is. But we watch that one movie New In Town, with Nicole Kidman (I never know how to spell her name)...and I guess you'd say it's "cute". It was alright...
- My camera was disfuncitonal. But my aunt gave me new batteries (that weren't super crapppy) and it's working again. Woop de woop. And yes, I did spell crappy with three p's.
- I forgot how funny my Mema and Papa are. They're very good at telling stories, and that's one of the main reasons I wished I lived here. They're...79(?), and I feel like I won't be here when it really matters. I'll miss them dearly. I really will.
- Everybody keeps playing the piano. Considering nobody in my family knows how to play, it isn't very pleasant. And Elijah's listening to music at the same time. Again, not very pleasant.
- It's a very good thing I've gotten over my fear of winking, because my Aunt likes to wink at me. A LOT. Aundi would be proud. And Hannah kept winking at me on the plane. It was really stupid, considering I was okay with it.
- It's crazy seeing rivers from the view of an airplane. It looks awesome though.
- I still feel very white. Hopefully that'll change?
- There's no spellcheck on this computer. Drives me crazy.
-The Always Lovely Leah
psalm 139:14
6.23.2009
For All You've Done
Hmmm...I know I already posted a blog today.
And I really enjoy reading your comments, guys. They make me feel like I'm not just talking to the vast nothing-ness of the internet!!!
So I went to dinner with Sarah Hopp today. It's kinda nice to know you're not alone, you know? I mean, I know I'm not alone, obviously...but somebody that can say "Yeah, Leah, I understand. It happened to me too."
In the past few days, I've been called "spiritually mature" quite a few times. I think I take that as one of the biggest compliments EVER. I've grown more in the past week than I can remember.
At dinner, Sarah asked me "Do you think you've grown spiritually in the last year since coming to pulse?"
And I gave her that "Are you really asking me that question?" look.
I think she understood.
I was also reminded at how great "Sing Praise" by Justin, her husband, is.
If you'd like to read the lyrics, here you go!
And I really enjoy reading your comments, guys. They make me feel like I'm not just talking to the vast nothing-ness of the internet!!!
So I went to dinner with Sarah Hopp today. It's kinda nice to know you're not alone, you know? I mean, I know I'm not alone, obviously...but somebody that can say "Yeah, Leah, I understand. It happened to me too."
In the past few days, I've been called "spiritually mature" quite a few times. I think I take that as one of the biggest compliments EVER. I've grown more in the past week than I can remember.
At dinner, Sarah asked me "Do you think you've grown spiritually in the last year since coming to pulse?"
And I gave her that "Are you really asking me that question?" look.
I think she understood.
I was also reminded at how great "Sing Praise" by Justin, her husband, is.
If you'd like to read the lyrics, here you go!
the morning star / the air i breathe / the one I seek / you are
the prince of peace / the great I am / everlasting king / you are
you're all i need, jesus / you're all i'll ever need
sing praise / let us glorify your name / use my life / to shine your light
sing praise / i will never let you go / come and fill my soul
you are the reason / why I sing praise
the prince of peace / the great I am / everlasting king / you are
you're all i need, jesus / you're all i'll ever need
sing praise / let us glorify your name / use my life / to shine your light
sing praise / i will never let you go / come and fill my soul
you are the reason / why I sing praise
and there's more to the song...which is like "Holy, Marvelous, Glorious...etc."
And I've quoted this song in recent blogs! Woo!
But I realized that this IS truly worship. Saying "God, I need you. Completely. You're everything."
A lot of the time that's JUST what I need! And "Came to My Rescue" and "From The Inside Out"
I cry too easily at these songs.
So I leave for Georgia tomorrow. Flight at 3:45. And...I was really excited to leave, and now I'm kinda...not. I guess it'll be better when I'm actually THERE. But...I just don't wanna leave. I like things the way they are, you know?
And my profound thought for the day (inspired by Kyra, Sonia, Amelia, and sometimes Morgan or Sydney):
I don't like change. If I'm comfortable, it's all good. But yet--I'm never satisfied. Like in my relationship with God. It's changing by the second, which I LOVE. I love being able to dive in to the...vast glory that is the Almighty God, and know that it's never ending! But with moving, or somebody changing their mind on me...it really pisses me off, to be honest. I guess it's just another way to say I'm selfish...but I want it my way! Being uncomfortable is...well, uncomfortable! It's not fun. Changing for the future is something I long for, though. Like I said in not my last blog, but the one before that, I kept saying "God, I know who I was, I know who I am, show me who I WILL be!"
and he did! Which makes the future a little more certain.
But "tomorrow is promised to no man"
So I guess that's a "live it up" statement for God. And after knowing that my voice specifically is meant for the work of ministry, that makes me even more on fire for God, I think. That me singing COULD influence somebody.
Like the lyrics I tried to write at our song writing session--"Show them the Joy I've found in You"...which was actually included in Aundi's song, believe it or not.
Random, but I'm blogging from bed. Isn't that nice? I feel like such a dork. With no life. And I should probably be packing right now...butttttt.....I will soon!
Well, for my last night in the 3 oh! 3, goodnight.
-The Always Lovely Leah
(I've decided that since I'm always lovely, it should be implied with....Psalm 139:14!!!) So maybe I'll just start saying
Well, blah blah blah etc,
-Psalm 139:14
LPT
And I've quoted this song in recent blogs! Woo!
But I realized that this IS truly worship. Saying "God, I need you. Completely. You're everything."
A lot of the time that's JUST what I need! And "Came to My Rescue" and "From The Inside Out"
I cry too easily at these songs.
So I leave for Georgia tomorrow. Flight at 3:45. And...I was really excited to leave, and now I'm kinda...not. I guess it'll be better when I'm actually THERE. But...I just don't wanna leave. I like things the way they are, you know?
And my profound thought for the day (inspired by Kyra, Sonia, Amelia, and sometimes Morgan or Sydney):
I don't like change. If I'm comfortable, it's all good. But yet--I'm never satisfied. Like in my relationship with God. It's changing by the second, which I LOVE. I love being able to dive in to the...vast glory that is the Almighty God, and know that it's never ending! But with moving, or somebody changing their mind on me...it really pisses me off, to be honest. I guess it's just another way to say I'm selfish...but I want it my way! Being uncomfortable is...well, uncomfortable! It's not fun. Changing for the future is something I long for, though. Like I said in not my last blog, but the one before that, I kept saying "God, I know who I was, I know who I am, show me who I WILL be!"
and he did! Which makes the future a little more certain.
But "tomorrow is promised to no man"
So I guess that's a "live it up" statement for God. And after knowing that my voice specifically is meant for the work of ministry, that makes me even more on fire for God, I think. That me singing COULD influence somebody.
Like the lyrics I tried to write at our song writing session--"Show them the Joy I've found in You"...which was actually included in Aundi's song, believe it or not.
Random, but I'm blogging from bed. Isn't that nice? I feel like such a dork. With no life. And I should probably be packing right now...butttttt.....I will soon!
Well, for my last night in the 3 oh! 3, goodnight.
-The Always Lovely Leah
(I've decided that since I'm always lovely, it should be implied with....Psalm 139:14!!!) So maybe I'll just start saying
Well, blah blah blah etc,
-Psalm 139:14
LPT
And forever I will pray, "have Your way, have Your way"
Oh time for a survey that I stole from Kyra.
When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
My hair is so fluffy! I wish it could be this soft everyday.
How much cash do you have on you?
None. In my bag, $20.
What's a word that rhymes with "DOOR?"
more. Do you need anymore
Favorite planet?
...The one we live on? Other than that, I think Mercury. Just because it's the closest to the sun.
Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone?
Amelium.
What is your favorite ring on your phone?
Hmmm....probably my "Break Free"
What shirt are you wearing?
My only Aeropostale shirt that I own. Air-O-Po-St-AL-AY!
Do you "label" yourself?
I don't think so?
Name the brand of your shoes you're currently wearing?
I am wearing God's brand of shoes. (Does that mean bare feet, Kyra? Because that's how it is for me.)
Bright or Dark Room?
Sleeping: dark. Completely dark.
Awake: Bright. Very.
What were you doing at midnight last night?
Hmmm....talking to Elijah.
What did your last text message you received on your cell say?
Weirdness. I didn't even know he went to church. (KYRA!)
Where is your nearest 7-11?
don't even know!
What's a word that you say a lot?
Dude. Awesome. Ya know? Hallelujah....maybe.
Who told you he/she loved you last?
I don't remember.
Last furry thing you touched?
Hmmm...carpet.
How many drugs have you done in the last three days?
...none?
How many rolls of film do you need developed?
Oh wow. I have like a bunch of rolls from like sixth grade that I need to develop. My thing is that if I win the lottery, I'll develop all my film, ride the 25 cent pony rides at king soopers, and put 1000 pennies face down randomly in a high school and see how many don't get picked up.
Favorite age you have been so far?
Probably 14, since my mind is stuck there...and a girl tried to convince me I was 14 today instead of 16; however, I didn't have my birth certificate to prove it.
Your worst enemy?
Nail Files. Moths. Raisins.
What is your current desktop picture?
fish. it's relaxing.
What was the last thing you said to someone?
I'm singing...so "Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades, never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame..."
If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly what would it be?
Million bucks. With flying, the government would take you like THAT!
Do you like someone?
I like a lot of people! But crush or whatever...no.
The last song you listened to?
I don't remember!
When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
My hair is so fluffy! I wish it could be this soft everyday.
How much cash do you have on you?
None. In my bag, $20.
What's a word that rhymes with "DOOR?"
more. Do you need anymore
Favorite planet?
...The one we live on? Other than that, I think Mercury. Just because it's the closest to the sun.
Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone?
Amelium.
What is your favorite ring on your phone?
Hmmm....probably my "Break Free"
What shirt are you wearing?
My only Aeropostale shirt that I own. Air-O-Po-St-AL-AY!
Do you "label" yourself?
I don't think so?
Name the brand of your shoes you're currently wearing?
I am wearing God's brand of shoes. (Does that mean bare feet, Kyra? Because that's how it is for me.)
Bright or Dark Room?
Sleeping: dark. Completely dark.
Awake: Bright. Very.
What were you doing at midnight last night?
Hmmm....talking to Elijah.
What did your last text message you received on your cell say?
Weirdness. I didn't even know he went to church. (KYRA!)
Where is your nearest 7-11?
don't even know!
What's a word that you say a lot?
Dude. Awesome. Ya know? Hallelujah....maybe.
Who told you he/she loved you last?
I don't remember.
Last furry thing you touched?
Hmmm...carpet.
How many drugs have you done in the last three days?
...none?
How many rolls of film do you need developed?
Oh wow. I have like a bunch of rolls from like sixth grade that I need to develop. My thing is that if I win the lottery, I'll develop all my film, ride the 25 cent pony rides at king soopers, and put 1000 pennies face down randomly in a high school and see how many don't get picked up.
Favorite age you have been so far?
Probably 14, since my mind is stuck there...and a girl tried to convince me I was 14 today instead of 16; however, I didn't have my birth certificate to prove it.
Your worst enemy?
Nail Files. Moths. Raisins.
What is your current desktop picture?
fish. it's relaxing.
What was the last thing you said to someone?
I'm singing...so "Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades, never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame..."
If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly what would it be?
Million bucks. With flying, the government would take you like THAT!
Do you like someone?
I like a lot of people! But crush or whatever...no.
The last song you listened to?
I don't remember!
6.22.2009
The Thoughts that Give Me The Creeps
Well...I don't know what to say anymore!
Isn't that crazy? The girl that ALWAYS has something to say really just...doesn't.
From the blog that I posted yesterday afternoon, I'd consider myself a completely changed person.
Things have been going well with Nick since I talked to him (what I explained yesterday)...we talked about Barbies, Star Wars, and sports related injuries (scrapbooking) today.
So church last night....AWESOME. Nuff said. The warrior comment SO came to my senses. I cried like I've never cried before. I was always kinda like
"God, you tell me about how I am and how I was, but why won't you tell me what I'll become?"
And I think it was mostly because I needed to surrender myself completely by saying
"My Prince, I'm willing to lay down my dreams, my passions, my talents, for Your will. Have Your way with me"
And if you really wanna hear what was said, you can ask. But I don't wanna just put it out there for the world to see.
Skills camp was pretty good today...my hand is sore from hole-punching cardboard for little girls. Like LEGIT sore. And I got my hair cut! WOOP DE WOOP!
So in the words, of pulse,
not woo,
but YEAH!!!
-The Always Lovely Leah
Isn't that crazy? The girl that ALWAYS has something to say really just...doesn't.
From the blog that I posted yesterday afternoon, I'd consider myself a completely changed person.
Things have been going well with Nick since I talked to him (what I explained yesterday)...we talked about Barbies, Star Wars, and sports related injuries (scrapbooking) today.
So church last night....AWESOME. Nuff said. The warrior comment SO came to my senses. I cried like I've never cried before. I was always kinda like
"God, you tell me about how I am and how I was, but why won't you tell me what I'll become?"
And I think it was mostly because I needed to surrender myself completely by saying
"My Prince, I'm willing to lay down my dreams, my passions, my talents, for Your will. Have Your way with me"
And if you really wanna hear what was said, you can ask. But I don't wanna just put it out there for the world to see.
Skills camp was pretty good today...my hand is sore from hole-punching cardboard for little girls. Like LEGIT sore. And I got my hair cut! WOOP DE WOOP!
So in the words, of pulse,
not woo,
but YEAH!!!
-The Always Lovely Leah
6.20.2009
At his feet I'll lay my crowns, my worship
Ah good golly Miss Molly! (I've always wanted to say that to one of the two Mollys I know. I never have. WAIT. I know three!)
Yesterday was fun. Lesson learned: Elitches is much more fun with less people. And if you go with JUST one other person, make sure you want to ACTUALLY spend all day with that person. I learned that last summer.
Anyway.
I thought the funniest thing Amelia's ever said occurred yesterday.
"Bob it up"
referring to "Listen to Bob Marley" since I was doing so.
I pretty much almost peed my pants. It was FUN-NY!
So what else...yeah we got lost. It's not an outing with teenage girls until you get lost at least once.
How many times I've experienced this: too many.
1. Revolve with Aundi, Elizabeth, and the Spig (Jesseca)
2. Volunteering with Courtney
3. Volunteering with Courtney and Audrey a second time
I can't think of any more. But I do get lost A LOT.
And come to think of it, every time I want to write a blog, I also feel like listening to "Eleanor Rigby" by the Beatles.
I actually never thought I'd like the beatles. I liked "Twist and Shout", but you kinda HAVE to like that one.
And after I listen to "Eleanor Rigby", I HAVE to listen to Hey Jude.
I've recently realized I'd really like to know how to play the piano. Sure, I can play guitar (quite suckily...but that's just because I don't practice), but piano is...so...soulful.
So back to being lost. We ended up going to Del Taco. And they didn't give us a taco. How do you forget that? Because we ordered a bean burrito-beef taco combo with a Mr. Pibb (at almost 11 PM)....and they forgot the taco. But they serve fries...with tacos? Is that the most contradicting combination ever???
Anyway. What I really wanted to say is that I had an extremely short conversation with Nick, and it was nice. I pretty much said sorry for investing my emotions in him, and I'm sorry that I dragged him into that. And he was VERY receptive. I wanted to tell him this over the phone or in person, but that couldn't exactly happen. So we ended that with me telling him that he WILL save his love for his future wife, because she'll feel EXTREMELY loved that he thought about her before knowing her.
So this blog took two days to write. Actually not really, because I started it yesterday...but I'm finishing it right now
ON MY LAPTOP!
GAASSSPPPPP!!! I KNOW! It's fixed =]
There's a lot I could update the world of internet on, but I've decided I'll spare you the boring details of my life.
So this lady, Karen, who kinda reminds me of my Grandma with her....ermmm...."eccentric-ness", is my mom's friend. She sat in front of us today, and when I greeted her traditionally ("hey turn and greet two to three people around you, let 'em know you're glad to see them in the house of God!") she said:
"Wow! You're just a warrior for your family, aren't you?"
And in the words of Esperanza from The House On Mango Street:
"...and I said yes, but at that time I didn't know what she meant."
So I felt like crying after she said that. I don't know why.
I don't know why my font switched. I can't get it back.
I guess when somebody puts something on your heart, God moves...ya know? And I think she meant a spiritual warrior, because it's not like I'm running out in the street chasing after people with a plastic lightsaber defending my younger siblings, older brother, and parents. I know you can TOTALLY visualize me doing this. Like wearing some Obi-Wan or Anakin jedi outfit? Maybe I'll shave my head and have one of those braids behind my ears.
Okay I'm sorry. Back to being serious.
I know this is going to sound ....eccentric and over-the-top, but I am fighting for my life! I think everybody is. With the sword of the spirit, right? For my drama peeps, when Ryan was talking about the armor of God, I had never TRULY let it sink in. I rarely read my Bible...but now I can't seem to put it down. I get up, read, shower, listen to Hillsong, and that's how I start my day since last Wednesday. I think after I'm done with this blog, I'll go read Psalms.
So during worship, I was on the verge of tears...again, from her comment and me not understanding it. Since last year at Apex, Pastor Aaron said "You're bearing the burdens of many. Jesus is the only one whose burden is easy and whose yoke is light."
See, I'm the kinda person that says "If nobody can do it right, do it yourself"
for EVERYTHING. Especially emotionally. And that's why I think God often whispers
"Just let go."
Sometimes it's hard. Oh dear goodness, don't I know!!!
Another thing....they played "Mighty To Save/Shout To The Lord"...and Mighty to Save is probably one of the greatest worship songs ever written.
And I remember listening to "Shout To The Lord" in my carseat when I was 4 or 5 on our way home from church. Those words are practically embedded in my heart, and when I finally realized what those words
Yesterday was fun. Lesson learned: Elitches is much more fun with less people. And if you go with JUST one other person, make sure you want to ACTUALLY spend all day with that person. I learned that last summer.
Anyway.
I thought the funniest thing Amelia's ever said occurred yesterday.
"Bob it up"
referring to "Listen to Bob Marley" since I was doing so.
I pretty much almost peed my pants. It was FUN-NY!
So what else...yeah we got lost. It's not an outing with teenage girls until you get lost at least once.
How many times I've experienced this: too many.
1. Revolve with Aundi, Elizabeth, and the Spig (Jesseca)
2. Volunteering with Courtney
3. Volunteering with Courtney and Audrey a second time
I can't think of any more. But I do get lost A LOT.
And come to think of it, every time I want to write a blog, I also feel like listening to "Eleanor Rigby" by the Beatles.
I actually never thought I'd like the beatles. I liked "Twist and Shout", but you kinda HAVE to like that one.
And after I listen to "Eleanor Rigby", I HAVE to listen to Hey Jude.
I've recently realized I'd really like to know how to play the piano. Sure, I can play guitar (quite suckily...but that's just because I don't practice), but piano is...so...soulful.
So back to being lost. We ended up going to Del Taco. And they didn't give us a taco. How do you forget that? Because we ordered a bean burrito-beef taco combo with a Mr. Pibb (at almost 11 PM)....and they forgot the taco. But they serve fries...with tacos? Is that the most contradicting combination ever???
Anyway. What I really wanted to say is that I had an extremely short conversation with Nick, and it was nice. I pretty much said sorry for investing my emotions in him, and I'm sorry that I dragged him into that. And he was VERY receptive. I wanted to tell him this over the phone or in person, but that couldn't exactly happen. So we ended that with me telling him that he WILL save his love for his future wife, because she'll feel EXTREMELY loved that he thought about her before knowing her.
So this blog took two days to write. Actually not really, because I started it yesterday...but I'm finishing it right now
ON MY LAPTOP!
GAASSSPPPPP!!! I KNOW! It's fixed =]
There's a lot I could update the world of internet on, but I've decided I'll spare you the boring details of my life.
So this lady, Karen, who kinda reminds me of my Grandma with her....ermmm...."eccentric-ness", is my mom's friend. She sat in front of us today, and when I greeted her traditionally ("hey turn and greet two to three people around you, let 'em know you're glad to see them in the house of God!") she said:
"Wow! You're just a warrior for your family, aren't you?"
And in the words of Esperanza from The House On Mango Street:
"...and I said yes, but at that time I didn't know what she meant."
So I felt like crying after she said that. I don't know why.
I don't know why my font switched. I can't get it back.
I guess when somebody puts something on your heart, God moves...ya know? And I think she meant a spiritual warrior, because it's not like I'm running out in the street chasing after people with a plastic lightsaber defending my younger siblings, older brother, and parents. I know you can TOTALLY visualize me doing this. Like wearing some Obi-Wan or Anakin jedi outfit? Maybe I'll shave my head and have one of those braids behind my ears.
Okay I'm sorry. Back to being serious.
I know this is going to sound ....eccentric and over-the-top, but I am fighting for my life! I think everybody is. With the sword of the spirit, right? For my drama peeps, when Ryan was talking about the armor of God, I had never TRULY let it sink in. I rarely read my Bible...but now I can't seem to put it down. I get up, read, shower, listen to Hillsong, and that's how I start my day since last Wednesday. I think after I'm done with this blog, I'll go read Psalms.
So during worship, I was on the verge of tears...again, from her comment and me not understanding it. Since last year at Apex, Pastor Aaron said "You're bearing the burdens of many. Jesus is the only one whose burden is easy and whose yoke is light."
See, I'm the kinda person that says "If nobody can do it right, do it yourself"
for EVERYTHING. Especially emotionally. And that's why I think God often whispers
"Just let go."
Sometimes it's hard. Oh dear goodness, don't I know!!!
Another thing....they played "Mighty To Save/Shout To The Lord"...and Mighty to Save is probably one of the greatest worship songs ever written.
And I remember listening to "Shout To The Lord" in my carseat when I was 4 or 5 on our way home from church. Those words are practically embedded in my heart, and when I finally realized what those words
(Shout To the Lord, all the earth, let us sing / Power and Majesty, Praise to the King / Mountains will bow and the seas will roar / at the sound of Your name
I sing for joy at the work of Your hands / Forever I'll love You / Forever I'll stand
Nothing compares to the promise I have in You)
I sing for joy at the work of Your hands / Forever I'll love You / Forever I'll stand
Nothing compares to the promise I have in You)
REALLY meant, it was....Awesome. That's probably the word I use most to describe God. Awesome. I was reading this book...and it said that the FIRST word God used to describe himself to Moses (was it Moses?) was compassionate. AH If you could wrap your heart around this...I guess I cry too much at God. Not really. I don't think you can cry too much for God!
Anyway. Happy Fathers Day! Earthly father, Heavenly Father, WHATEVER!
Tell your Padres a big hello from:
-The Always Lovely Leah
Anyway. Happy Fathers Day! Earthly father, Heavenly Father, WHATEVER!
Tell your Padres a big hello from:
-The Always Lovely Leah
6.19.2009
As a lily among thorns, so is my love among the daughters.
p.s. (pre-script)-Does everybody like my new fishies? ----->
It took FOREVER to get them on here. And to get them all purple with one black and one white. I thought it made it balanced. And they like to spaz. And if you click, you can feed them. Anyway. That's the end of my p.s.
Song of Solomon 2:2.
I know, I didn't use a line from a song...even though I REALLY wanted to. Technically, it is a song.For two weeks starting next Wednesday, I won't be blogging too often. I'll probably blog from my phone. OR MY LAPTOP! Which is getting fixed by Monday.
That's a WOOP DE WOOP for prayers, right?
Okay, yes, I pray about a laptop. But even the tiniest things, God cares about, right?
That sentence was riddled with grammatical mistakes.
Amelia, do you work.
Anyway.
I was reading a book yesterday! I started and finished it in one day. And because it didn't take me very long, I think I'm going to read it again. It's Authentic Beauty. I LOVE this book...I wouldn't read just any book twice. And isn't the cover pretty?
Aundi finished this book a couple days ago and was like "You HAVE to read this book"
And since Aundi is my "team-mate" according to the book, I generally take her advice. I wrote her a letter the other day (which I lost. URG.)...and then I had to write another one. I was TICKED.
So, all in all, the letter made her cry. And writing the FIRST letter made ME cry. The first was two pages, the second was one. Front and back, obviously. But if I DO find the first letter floating around somewhere, I'll give it to her.
Anyway. The book says "Don't expect quick-fix advice or surefire solutions from your teammate. Sometimes you just need someone to listen to your story, to cry with you, and to diligently pray with you as you walk through this process."
And I think Aundi does EXACTLY that. Of course, sometimes she says "I think you should punch him in the face"...but I think that's just a response to make me feel better, obviously. If my letter ACTUALLY made her cry, I think it's because she does really want to listen to me...since I told her how much I appreciate her being my Godly counseler, and someone I can look up to. She pretty much lived a replica of my life three years in the future.
Anyway. I thought I should share with you something that I was like DUDE. THIS IS WHAT I NEED!!!
The whole "You can lead a horse to water but you can't make it drink"
And I've learned this recently! Obviously I won't go into too much detail. But God has a way of using people, ya know? The uncanny ocurrences of God (what I like to call "God-things") happen A LOT. And people will blame it on coincidence, or even...the cosmos? (Danielle would get this reference"
So the main thing that I learned from this book--
To truly find my prince (the "one"), I have to seek after my true Prince (Jesus Christ, who was killed, that's how much he loved me)
Like--if you had a boyfriend that said "Ya know Kyra/Morgan/Sydney/Amelia/Danielle/Sonia, I love you so much, I'm going to sacrifice myself. So you can live with me after you die, and you can live a life with forgiveness. You CAN find happiness. And I'm willing to die for that. For your happiness."
While on the cross, he could've said "Ya know, eh...Leah really isn't worth it. She can go to hell and be condemned for her sins. I don't really wanna die for her, I'd rather live."
But nope, he died for ME. FOR ME!
And it sounds all John 3:16 Christian, I know, but once you really wrap your mind (or really, your heart) around the fact that someobdy loved YOU (all your flaws, all your quirks, all your traits...) SO MUCH! it's amazing!
So to what I was saying. Seeking after my true Prince...I have to clean out my heart of the unforgiveness, bitterness, jealousy, and all the other "garbage" in there...so nothing will distract me from my Prince (JC) in my sanctuary. And this novel/relationship book (meh?) was really about seeking that Prince in order to find TRUE love.
And obviously, the purity debate occurs. And what I realize is....through my relationships, I've remained pure PHYSICALLY (being a virgin, knowing that my body is a temple...), but emotionally I've really played around. Especially with Nick, and my boyfriend from two summers ago, Morgan (it was a guy. named morgan. a guy). I invested WAYYYY too much of my emotion into both of them.
After reading that in the book, I cried. I didn't feel condemned, but I feel like God was saying "Leah. You can overcome this. You can be emotionally pure again. Trust in Me. You'll become the 'lily-white princess' I've made you to be"
And I also realized my thoughts wander a lot. I've started waking up at 8 AM to read my bible for an hour (sometimes more) after the discussion we had in internship. When I go to sleep, I don't think about my Prince. When I wake up, I'm not thinking about Him, either. When I shower, my thoughts wander.
I want to acknowledge that my Prince is with me always. Not just sitting there watching me, but guiding me, laughing with me, crying with me, or just keeping me company when I feel like there's nobody else in the universe that could understand me.
I want to give him my ENTIRE life.
It took FOREVER to get them on here. And to get them all purple with one black and one white. I thought it made it balanced. And they like to spaz. And if you click, you can feed them. Anyway. That's the end of my p.s.
Song of Solomon 2:2.
I know, I didn't use a line from a song...even though I REALLY wanted to. Technically, it is a song.For two weeks starting next Wednesday, I won't be blogging too often. I'll probably blog from my phone. OR MY LAPTOP! Which is getting fixed by Monday.
That's a WOOP DE WOOP for prayers, right?
Okay, yes, I pray about a laptop. But even the tiniest things, God cares about, right?
That sentence was riddled with grammatical mistakes.
Amelia, do you work.
Anyway.
I was reading a book yesterday! I started and finished it in one day. And because it didn't take me very long, I think I'm going to read it again. It's Authentic Beauty. I LOVE this book...I wouldn't read just any book twice. And isn't the cover pretty?Aundi finished this book a couple days ago and was like "You HAVE to read this book"
And since Aundi is my "team-mate" according to the book, I generally take her advice. I wrote her a letter the other day (which I lost. URG.)...and then I had to write another one. I was TICKED.
So, all in all, the letter made her cry. And writing the FIRST letter made ME cry. The first was two pages, the second was one. Front and back, obviously. But if I DO find the first letter floating around somewhere, I'll give it to her.
Anyway. The book says "Don't expect quick-fix advice or surefire solutions from your teammate. Sometimes you just need someone to listen to your story, to cry with you, and to diligently pray with you as you walk through this process."
And I think Aundi does EXACTLY that. Of course, sometimes she says "I think you should punch him in the face"...but I think that's just a response to make me feel better, obviously. If my letter ACTUALLY made her cry, I think it's because she does really want to listen to me...since I told her how much I appreciate her being my Godly counseler, and someone I can look up to. She pretty much lived a replica of my life three years in the future.
Anyway. I thought I should share with you something that I was like DUDE. THIS IS WHAT I NEED!!!
You have NO idea how many times I've cried at church. The hardest I've EVER cried was at Apex last summer. It's kinda just...unexplainable. You can't just TELL somebody to experience God, they kinda have to do it on their own, ya know?We sing a lot of songs about our own failures or desires, we shout out a lot of personal requests to heaven, and we may even get an emotional worship high by dancing, jumping, or clapping along with the beat. There is a time and place for having fun, singing little mindless ditties about taking a bath, or scratching someone's back. But how often do we tune out the rest of the world and stand speechless in wonder and awe at the incredible majesty of our Prince? How often do we sing abou His incredible love and sacrifice with tears of gratitude streaming unashamedly down our faces? How often do we fall on our faces in adoration, stunned by His awesome power and amazed by His inifinite tenderness?
The whole "You can lead a horse to water but you can't make it drink"
And I've learned this recently! Obviously I won't go into too much detail. But God has a way of using people, ya know? The uncanny ocurrences of God (what I like to call "God-things") happen A LOT. And people will blame it on coincidence, or even...the cosmos? (Danielle would get this reference"
I feel it! I can feel the cosmos!
Anyway. God moves in AMAZING ways, and many won't admit it.So the main thing that I learned from this book--
To truly find my prince (the "one"), I have to seek after my true Prince (Jesus Christ, who was killed, that's how much he loved me)
Like--if you had a boyfriend that said "Ya know Kyra/Morgan/Sydney/Amelia/Danielle/Sonia, I love you so much, I'm going to sacrifice myself. So you can live with me after you die, and you can live a life with forgiveness. You CAN find happiness. And I'm willing to die for that. For your happiness."
While on the cross, he could've said "Ya know, eh...Leah really isn't worth it. She can go to hell and be condemned for her sins. I don't really wanna die for her, I'd rather live."
But nope, he died for ME. FOR ME!
And it sounds all John 3:16 Christian, I know, but once you really wrap your mind (or really, your heart) around the fact that someobdy loved YOU (all your flaws, all your quirks, all your traits...) SO MUCH! it's amazing!
So to what I was saying. Seeking after my true Prince...I have to clean out my heart of the unforgiveness, bitterness, jealousy, and all the other "garbage" in there...so nothing will distract me from my Prince (JC) in my sanctuary. And this novel/relationship book (meh?) was really about seeking that Prince in order to find TRUE love.
And obviously, the purity debate occurs. And what I realize is....through my relationships, I've remained pure PHYSICALLY (being a virgin, knowing that my body is a temple...), but emotionally I've really played around. Especially with Nick, and my boyfriend from two summers ago, Morgan (it was a guy. named morgan. a guy). I invested WAYYYY too much of my emotion into both of them.
After reading that in the book, I cried. I didn't feel condemned, but I feel like God was saying "Leah. You can overcome this. You can be emotionally pure again. Trust in Me. You'll become the 'lily-white princess' I've made you to be"
And I also realized my thoughts wander a lot. I've started waking up at 8 AM to read my bible for an hour (sometimes more) after the discussion we had in internship. When I go to sleep, I don't think about my Prince. When I wake up, I'm not thinking about Him, either. When I shower, my thoughts wander.
I want to acknowledge that my Prince is with me always. Not just sitting there watching me, but guiding me, laughing with me, crying with me, or just keeping me company when I feel like there's nobody else in the universe that could understand me.
I want to give him my ENTIRE life.
Sing praise / let us glorify Your name / use my life / to shine Your light
Sing praise / I will never let You go / come and fill my soul
You are the reason/ why I sing praise
Oceans will part / nations come / at the whisper of Your call
hope will rise / glory shines / in my life, Your will be done
I'm living my life for You / I'm giving everything to You
Not holding back / but every part / I'm giving it all to You
Surrender / Surrender / You whisper gently
You say I will be free / I know but can't you see / my dreams are me
My dreams are me
Sing praise / I will never let You go / come and fill my soul
You are the reason/ why I sing praise
Oceans will part / nations come / at the whisper of Your call
hope will rise / glory shines / in my life, Your will be done
I'm living my life for You / I'm giving everything to You
Not holding back / but every part / I'm giving it all to You
Surrender / Surrender / You whisper gently
You say I will be free / I know but can't you see / my dreams are me
My dreams are me
Of course I could go on forever with songs about surrender. I've recently decided "ya know, whatever happens happens, it's the Lord's will, it's in His timing"
And whenever I commit to something in the Lord's will, I'm tempted to stray. DEAR GOODNESS this happens a lot. With dating, with getting up to read my bible, with going to church...what not.
And with the last lyric up there (Barlow Girl--"Surrender"), I've always had a dream to do theatre. To perform, to sing, to act, to dance (in that order!)...but I've realized that's not what God called me to do. He called me to do it for a season, but seasons change. It won't be easy, and I'm still taking Theatre III, but I'm not putting my absolute heart and soul into it.
I'm called to worship, to sing to the Most High God! Maybe not center stage with my own spotlight, but in the corner on the group mic. Perhaps even with my own microphone, being a point singer. I don't know. I don't know what God's doing with my life.
And it's gonna suck not being in control, but it's SO worth it.
I'm still inviting Matt to my wedding. To prove that true love DOES really exist. That God DOES have a "poet warrior" out there for me, and I WILL find him. And Matt was wrong. Waiting WASN'T for nothing, and me and my "one"'s marriage will thrive. It will be built spiritually, emotionally, then physically. That's the only way it can work.
more for later
-The Always Lovely Leah
Psalm 139:14
And whenever I commit to something in the Lord's will, I'm tempted to stray. DEAR GOODNESS this happens a lot. With dating, with getting up to read my bible, with going to church...what not.
And with the last lyric up there (Barlow Girl--"Surrender"), I've always had a dream to do theatre. To perform, to sing, to act, to dance (in that order!)...but I've realized that's not what God called me to do. He called me to do it for a season, but seasons change. It won't be easy, and I'm still taking Theatre III, but I'm not putting my absolute heart and soul into it.
I'm called to worship, to sing to the Most High God! Maybe not center stage with my own spotlight, but in the corner on the group mic. Perhaps even with my own microphone, being a point singer. I don't know. I don't know what God's doing with my life.
And it's gonna suck not being in control, but it's SO worth it.
I'm still inviting Matt to my wedding. To prove that true love DOES really exist. That God DOES have a "poet warrior" out there for me, and I WILL find him. And Matt was wrong. Waiting WASN'T for nothing, and me and my "one"'s marriage will thrive. It will be built spiritually, emotionally, then physically. That's the only way it can work.
more for later
-The Always Lovely Leah
Psalm 139:14
6.17.2009
I'm melted and left all alone on the side of the road...
I actually wrote about a half a blog earlier, but I exited out of it because my computer was making me want to punch somebody in the face.
Anyway =D
You can't just transition from wanting to punch somebody in the face to something happy.
SO I WON'T!
=D
I had an hour and 45 minute ortho appointment today. Lemme tell ya, that was fun. Three brackets, four braces later, I'm in some pain. And I watched the end of Madagascar, which made it bearable. But then they put on College Roadtrip ya know, the one with Raven and Martin Lawrence? Yeah, that's when it got bad.
Then I was home for hmmm.....7 minutes, approximately, I ate noodles. Noodles with butter and Parmesan. I think that's my ultimate comfort food. Anyway. Then I was off to internship, which was...interesting.
I cut papers in half, sliced O's out of giant foam hands, made a video for Apex, decided that me and Abby Green were going to make a Pulse facebook, played a stupid game involving a golfball and pepsi cups, sorted t-shirts, was called a robot, was dared to drink lemon juice (which I didn't), and was beaten BADLY by Michelle in Dead or Alive 3. I also found out Nate has PERFECT rhythm. I guess with Aundi as a sister, I'm not surprised. She has some rhythm herself!
So I got home, and I've been doing pretty much nothing ever since.
BUT BUT BUT! I played some Bioshock. Because there's this whole long story, that my aunt bought it for me and I haven't opened it since last week when I got it, but I decided to open it today. And I gotta say, I dearly missed that game. But it STILL creeps me out. I CAN NOT play it at night. And I usually have to listen to music while playing it. Or chat with somebody. Probably Tommy.
ANYWAY.
You know my pregnancy pic? The one that is my profile picture right now? Yeah, I sent that to Tommy. And he said "Nice faked pregnancy :]"
And I said "Ha ha thanks =]"
and he said "I actually believed it for a second and was pretty shocked, but then I remembered it was you"
Which i took as a compliment, meaning I have more class than to go out and get pregnant willy-nilly.
I've been saying Willy-nilly a lot today. I think I like that expression.
But ANYWAY. I thought it was funny...since everybody knows me as the "good little church girl"...which I don't think I am. And I don't wanna be associated with church. I wanna be associated with the joy from God, like Morgan is! Or just... my desire to stay pure, instead of just being the "Forever"virgin.
But I'm okay with being associated with that, I guess. It's better than not being associated with anything good.
Anyway. I've said anyway at least three times in this blog. I really wanna go to sleep, otherwise this blog would be longer.
-The Always Lovely Leah
Anyway =D
You can't just transition from wanting to punch somebody in the face to something happy.
SO I WON'T!
=D
I had an hour and 45 minute ortho appointment today. Lemme tell ya, that was fun. Three brackets, four braces later, I'm in some pain. And I watched the end of Madagascar, which made it bearable. But then they put on College Roadtrip ya know, the one with Raven and Martin Lawrence? Yeah, that's when it got bad.
Then I was home for hmmm.....7 minutes, approximately, I ate noodles. Noodles with butter and Parmesan. I think that's my ultimate comfort food. Anyway. Then I was off to internship, which was...interesting.
I cut papers in half, sliced O's out of giant foam hands, made a video for Apex, decided that me and Abby Green were going to make a Pulse facebook, played a stupid game involving a golfball and pepsi cups, sorted t-shirts, was called a robot, was dared to drink lemon juice (which I didn't), and was beaten BADLY by Michelle in Dead or Alive 3. I also found out Nate has PERFECT rhythm. I guess with Aundi as a sister, I'm not surprised. She has some rhythm herself!
So I got home, and I've been doing pretty much nothing ever since.
BUT BUT BUT! I played some Bioshock. Because there's this whole long story, that my aunt bought it for me and I haven't opened it since last week when I got it, but I decided to open it today. And I gotta say, I dearly missed that game. But it STILL creeps me out. I CAN NOT play it at night. And I usually have to listen to music while playing it. Or chat with somebody. Probably Tommy.
ANYWAY.
You know my pregnancy pic? The one that is my profile picture right now? Yeah, I sent that to Tommy. And he said "Nice faked pregnancy :]"
And I said "Ha ha thanks =]"
and he said "I actually believed it for a second and was pretty shocked, but then I remembered it was you"
Which i took as a compliment, meaning I have more class than to go out and get pregnant willy-nilly.
I've been saying Willy-nilly a lot today. I think I like that expression.
But ANYWAY. I thought it was funny...since everybody knows me as the "good little church girl"...which I don't think I am. And I don't wanna be associated with church. I wanna be associated with the joy from God, like Morgan is! Or just... my desire to stay pure, instead of just being the "Forever"virgin.
But I'm okay with being associated with that, I guess. It's better than not being associated with anything good.
Anyway. I've said anyway at least three times in this blog. I really wanna go to sleep, otherwise this blog would be longer.
- I miss Kyra
- Amelia's one smart cookie
- my mouth hurts
- I'm re-writing a letter to Aundi
- Starbucks with Aundi tomorrow
-The Always Lovely Leah
6.16.2009
'cause it's getting harder & harder to breathe
I figured I do another survey because Morgan loves them so much. I think when I put one on here she claps and smiles.
Your phone is ringing. It's your ex. What do you say?
Uhh...hello? (Since he used to give me a lot of pocket calls)
Want someone back in your life?
Hmm...I seem to do that a lot, but if I really analyze it, it's usually for the better that they're gone.
What are you excited for?
Going to Georgia, going to Water World, ApeX, various other things...
Honestly, who was the last person to tell you that they love you?
Haha hmm I don't know his name. (That was Tayler's answer...it kinda creeped me out)
I don't really remember. Probably my Aunt when we talked on the phone.
Are you scared to fall in love?
I kinda think that everybody is to a point, but I know it won't happen for a while, so not really.
Do you think teenagers can be in love?
Of course. (*sigh* Tayler, Tayler, Tayler....)
I guess they COULD, but the majority of teenagers have no idea what love is.
Do you find it hard to trust others?
Not really...I trust too easily.
Do you care too much/not at all/just enough?
Somewhere between too much and just enough.
I bet you miss somebody right now?
I think we're always missing SOMEBODY. I miss my fish, Steve, from fifth grade. But yeah, I kinda miss somebody right now. It's not Steve. I have Captain America now =]
Can you honestly say you're okay right now?
Honestly...yes! I can really say I'm okay.
Why do you think so many people cheat?
Like in relationships? Because they're selfish and want a little something from everybody...otherwise, because they can't do it on their own.
Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
Well I could tell Elijah everything if I wanted to. So I guess the answer is yes?
Do you feel comfortable with answering personal questions?
...To a point. If you're going all gynecologist on me, I'll be like "Dude. No."
What's something you really want right now?
Chocolate chip pancakes.
Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?
Probably Cy or Meghan B...about each other, funnily enough.
Anywhere you'd rather be right now?
Elitches. For free. That would be GREAT!
Are you going on vacation this coming summer?
Considering it IS summer, I'm going to Georgia a week from tomorrow. But next summer, probably no where.
Does anyone like you?
I'm not certain. I don't know if Tommy still does, but I hope nobody does. It makes not dating VERY hard.
Do you have a best friend?
Yes indeedy!
What do you look forward to most in the next 3 months?
probably Apex. I LOVE apex.
Do you know anyone with the same birthday as you?
If I knew Shia LaBeouf, Jo Montana, or Gene Wilder, then yes, I would. But for now, I don't know anybody with my birthday.
Who will you be sleeping with tonight?
...myself?
Want something you can't have?
Everybody does, I think. But that might be what makes us human!
What is in store for your future?
Only God knows. Literally, only God knows.
What is your favorite soda?
Dear goodness...I'm in love with cream soda, if that counts.
Where is the last place you drove to?
I don't drive. But if I did, I don't know where I'd go.
What are you currently listening to?
Street noise. Definition: Lincoln Ave.
Have you ever kissed anyone you weren't dating?
I'm VERY happy to say that I haven't. I've been close many times, but I haven't.
Tell me about the shirt you are wearing?
It's from 45 Minutes from Broadway...which was the musical CK did in 6th grade...the first musical ever, and I was in it...
Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
I wouldn't think so. But compared to kids in third world countries, I am.
Do you drink water or soda more often?
Water. Soda would just be...unhealthy.
Would your parents be mad if you came home drunk?
If you could imagine the most pissed person on earth, that would be my mom or dad. And I don't drink, so that would be even worse.
Would you kiss an ugly person for $1,000?
Dude. Sure. Wait...actually, yeah I would. $1,000 is $1,000!
Can you speak another language?
A little bit of Spanish.
Nickname?
I have a lot from relatives...such as...Loopy, Lula, Lee, Dee, Leah Pauline (it's not really a nickname but I'm called that)
and from the rest...Princess leia (which I HATE. Do not call me that.), Lay lay, Tongueston, Thomas...etc.
Have you kissed somebody in the last 2 weeks?
Nope!
Have you ever kissed anyone whose name started with B or C?
Nope!
What's on your mind?
"I want apple jacks. Or toast with jelly on it."
Are you counting down for anything??
Not really.
Will your next kiss be a mistake?
No. It won't be.
Are you wearing clothes that don't belong to you?
Nope!
Do you think you can last in a relationship for 3 months?
Every relationship's different...so I don't know! I hope the next relationship I'm in will last forever.
Is it okay if you kiss people when you're single?
I guess so. I'm not the best person to ask.
When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends?
Just now or last night.
Where is the shirt you are wearing from?
Core Knowledge
What does your last text message say?
Maybe shopping, some more tennis, driving...:) you?
What are you doing tomorrow?
Orthodontist, Internship, being in pain...
How are you?
I'm doing pretty well =]
Your phone is ringing. It's your ex. What do you say?
Uhh...hello? (Since he used to give me a lot of pocket calls)
Want someone back in your life?
Hmm...I seem to do that a lot, but if I really analyze it, it's usually for the better that they're gone.
What are you excited for?
Going to Georgia, going to Water World, ApeX, various other things...
Honestly, who was the last person to tell you that they love you?
Haha hmm I don't know his name. (That was Tayler's answer...it kinda creeped me out)
I don't really remember. Probably my Aunt when we talked on the phone.
Are you scared to fall in love?
I kinda think that everybody is to a point, but I know it won't happen for a while, so not really.
Do you think teenagers can be in love?
Of course. (*sigh* Tayler, Tayler, Tayler....)
I guess they COULD, but the majority of teenagers have no idea what love is.
Do you find it hard to trust others?
Not really...I trust too easily.
Do you care too much/not at all/just enough?
Somewhere between too much and just enough.
I bet you miss somebody right now?
I think we're always missing SOMEBODY. I miss my fish, Steve, from fifth grade. But yeah, I kinda miss somebody right now. It's not Steve. I have Captain America now =]
Can you honestly say you're okay right now?
Honestly...yes! I can really say I'm okay.
Why do you think so many people cheat?
Like in relationships? Because they're selfish and want a little something from everybody...otherwise, because they can't do it on their own.
Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
Well I could tell Elijah everything if I wanted to. So I guess the answer is yes?
Do you feel comfortable with answering personal questions?
...To a point. If you're going all gynecologist on me, I'll be like "Dude. No."
What's something you really want right now?
Chocolate chip pancakes.
Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?
Probably Cy or Meghan B...about each other, funnily enough.
Anywhere you'd rather be right now?
Elitches. For free. That would be GREAT!
Are you going on vacation this coming summer?
Considering it IS summer, I'm going to Georgia a week from tomorrow. But next summer, probably no where.
Does anyone like you?
I'm not certain. I don't know if Tommy still does, but I hope nobody does. It makes not dating VERY hard.
Do you have a best friend?
Yes indeedy!
What do you look forward to most in the next 3 months?
probably Apex. I LOVE apex.
Do you know anyone with the same birthday as you?
If I knew Shia LaBeouf, Jo Montana, or Gene Wilder, then yes, I would. But for now, I don't know anybody with my birthday.
Who will you be sleeping with tonight?
...myself?
Want something you can't have?
Everybody does, I think. But that might be what makes us human!
What is in store for your future?
Only God knows. Literally, only God knows.
What is your favorite soda?
Dear goodness...I'm in love with cream soda, if that counts.
Where is the last place you drove to?
I don't drive. But if I did, I don't know where I'd go.
What are you currently listening to?
Street noise. Definition: Lincoln Ave.
Have you ever kissed anyone you weren't dating?
I'm VERY happy to say that I haven't. I've been close many times, but I haven't.
Tell me about the shirt you are wearing?
It's from 45 Minutes from Broadway...which was the musical CK did in 6th grade...the first musical ever, and I was in it...
Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
I wouldn't think so. But compared to kids in third world countries, I am.
Do you drink water or soda more often?
Water. Soda would just be...unhealthy.
Would your parents be mad if you came home drunk?
If you could imagine the most pissed person on earth, that would be my mom or dad. And I don't drink, so that would be even worse.
Would you kiss an ugly person for $1,000?
Dude. Sure. Wait...actually, yeah I would. $1,000 is $1,000!
Can you speak another language?
A little bit of Spanish.
Nickname?
I have a lot from relatives...such as...Loopy, Lula, Lee, Dee, Leah Pauline (it's not really a nickname but I'm called that)
and from the rest...Princess leia (which I HATE. Do not call me that.), Lay lay, Tongueston, Thomas...etc.
Have you kissed somebody in the last 2 weeks?
Nope!
Have you ever kissed anyone whose name started with B or C?
Nope!
What's on your mind?
"I want apple jacks. Or toast with jelly on it."
Are you counting down for anything??
Not really.
Will your next kiss be a mistake?
No. It won't be.
Are you wearing clothes that don't belong to you?
Nope!
Do you think you can last in a relationship for 3 months?
Every relationship's different...so I don't know! I hope the next relationship I'm in will last forever.
Is it okay if you kiss people when you're single?
I guess so. I'm not the best person to ask.
When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends?
Just now or last night.
Where is the shirt you are wearing from?
Core Knowledge
What does your last text message say?
Maybe shopping, some more tennis, driving...:) you?
What are you doing tomorrow?
Orthodontist, Internship, being in pain...
How are you?
I'm doing pretty well =]
6.15.2009
If anyone asks, I'll tell them we just grew apart
So everybody. I didn't write a blog yesterday. Oops. Since I pretty much was home for an hour the entire day yesterday. But I love church. Sunday is my favorite day of the week, I think.
First off, I think I'm in love with Pulse. Okay I already knew that. But you know, it's a place where I feel like I belong. I can never think of who to invite to church, since most of my closest friends ALREADY go to our church!
Since most people reading this already go to pulse, you can kinda skim over this. But yesterday was an awesome day! Not just because it was Elijah's 18th birthday, or because we went to my favorite Chinese restaurant in the world...but Pulse was pretty crazy awesome.
We actually got a birthday song from the band during band practice!
"Hmmmm b natural Ryan, b natural HMMMMMMBNATURALBNATURAL"
Oh Justin. Nobody understood that he was trying to sing happy birthday. Which was really nice. Then Nick said "What'd you get for your birthday? DID YOU GET YOUR PERMIT?"
and of course I said "I'm gonna punch you in the face Nick"
I wonder how many times I've told him that and never followed through.
I think it's like 45:0. Anyway. Worship was AWESOME yesterday, Nick-Elijah-Leah power! And Aundi's special hat/beret added to the awesomeness/power.
Hmm...should I tell the story about Nick?
Here's a WARNING:this story will be EXTREMELY long, and at most times uber pathetic
you might wanna listen to this song while in the process of...learning.
So it started that one night that pastor prophesied over Nick. Okay wait, actually it started before that. It started that one service we had in Grown-Up church (yes, i'm calling it that) sometime in...hmmm...August. So Nick and Vanessa were sitting behind me, and pastor did his traditional "Turn and greet two to three people around you". So, with me not knowing them, I turned and greeted them! So back to the night that pastor prophesied over Nick. He was sitting behind me again, next to Ryan Ilg...or something. I don't really remember. But he had oil all over his hands, from rubbing his head. And I turned around and said "I'd give you a high five, but I'd rather keep my hands clean, sorry!" I think that was end of October, beginning of November. And after service, he said something about how he didn't have my number because he thought of something he needed to tell me, but again, he didn't have my number. AND that's where the saga begins.
I think it was a Wednesday before Thanksgiving, but randomly he just texted me "Hey". Third period. Guitar. We were watching a...hmm...Van Halen concert. And that was the day that started the three months that we never stopped talking!
We just kept talking, and he kept trying to get us to go mini-golfing on Black Friday. But I kept saying "NICK! I'M SHOPPING! I TOLD YOU!"
and he'd hear me, respond, then ask me again like nothing happened. I probably should've taken that as a sign. But no, I didn't. So then he suggested something about doing something with a girl that he liked that week...so I freaked out, thought he was talking about me, and texted Aundi. That's pretty much what I do, if you haven't noticed.
1. Something happens.
2. I freak out.
3. I text Aundi to make sense of it.
And to this day I still don't know if I was the one that he was talking about.
So we went to Thes-con. I had developed a super crush. Not like, super hero crush that's giant, but like a Transformer-Optimus-Prime-and-Bumblebee-put-together-crush. But I thought he was after Merlow, because he'd ALWAYS talk about her. And I thought "Well, after that's done, he'll probably need somebody for comfort, right?" So I said nothing about it.
Well thescon was QUITE the experience. I think I lost like ten pounds that weekend, and slept hardly at all. The first event with him was the acting on film class. My warning to all: DO NOT TAKE ACTING ON FILM. It was probably the longest hour and a half of my LIFE. He was in yoga, but I was like "Please. Come save me. I'm going to die in this class by myself"...so he came. And we played checkers. AND HE CHEATED. First time I ever wanted to punch him in the face. Who knew there would be more opportunities to come??? But Chaparral's rule is to stay with at least one other Chap theatre person at all times. Yeah...broke that rule. More than once. I went and got lunch with him, and some other girl. We actually went back to this girl Deanna's room from TR (by the way, she's a....very-mean-girl. Insert your own word there.) I played this one Daisy racing game on his iTouch while he ate his tofu salad and listened to their IE. So then we went to his room (people. this story is PG. keep that in mind) while he brushed his teeth. I played his iTouch STILL, while his roommates made inappropriate comments about us...("Just close the bathroom door, we can turn up the TV so we don't hear anything.")
Italics random time
When I met Nick, let alone started on this little adventure towards our relationship, I KNEW neither of us would want to get physical AT ALL. Not just in the way that you'd expect, the purity of being a virgin and all that stuff, but just holding hands and kissing and...further than that. I had no intentions of anything physical WHATSOEVER. Our emotional/umm...mental relationship really did make up for that. I actually don't know if he TRULY had intentions of anything like that, but from what he'd told me and what I'd experienced, I didn't think so. Anyway. Back to the story.
And I don't think they ever heard me say anything...I just shook my head. And of course, this is when I found out I couldn't take a hint to save my life.
He brushed his teeth. In the middle of the day, when he was planning to be alone with a girl. If you're not doing the math in your head, he was expecting some lip action.
(While writing this, I keep shaking my head. To how stupid we both were!)
Well, we rode to the VERY top floor of the Hyatt.
(In the elevator, if you're going from like the 5th floor to the 25th, you feel like you're in a rocket. It starts shaking and picks up speed, and you think you just might die in some fiery crash)
So he was showing me his "All That Jazz" dance from his Broadway Dance class. Can I just say that I pretty much almost wet my pants watching this? From laughing, being nervous, knowing that I just broke/am breaking two of the biggest rules of Chaparral (the other unmentioned rule being that there's "no purpling" meaning I'm not allowed to be in any guys' rooms. oops.)..and nothing happened, don't worry.
So he was in my swing class the next morning, and he SAID he would be my partner.
Well, Marianne ended up being my partner. To which I'd like to say....she's a lovely dancer.
Throughout this time, there were (what I thought were) hints to that he didn't like me.
Boy was I wrong. He actually ASKED me to the Thescon dance (or, that's what he says if you ask)
what he really said is "Are you going to the dance? Do you wanna come with me?" because nobody I knew was going. Obviously, Chaparral people would be there, but nobody in their right mind goes to the dance.
So we went to the dance.
WORST NIGHT OF MY LIFE.
I don't think I've ever been more covered in sweat. And I REFUSED to take off my sweatshirt. It sounds stupid, I know, because it was like 100 something degress in that frickin room, but I did NOT want other peoples' sweat on me. And Nick took off his shirt, which was SUPER awkward. If i could've pulled out a flock of awkward turtles, I would've unleashed them after maybe after the first ten seconds. But it was kinda....sweet(?) that Nick didn't get too close to me. First and last time grinding. I promise. I swear. I PINKY SWEAR! He also was like Okay, this guy is way too close to you. Let's go this way.
And at the end of the dance, the elevators were full to bursting with sweaty teenagers. So we took the stairs.
FIVE FLIGHTS OF FRICKIN STAIRS AFTER STANDING FOR THREE HOURS. Actually, it was 6 flights of stairs. And to get to my room on the 5th floor, we had to go through the exercise room. At almost 1 AM, the exercise room looked like it was ready for action--maybe midafternoon, with the pool rippling and the flourescent lights gleaming. Of course, my tongue was about to dry up and fall off by this time, so I was like DEAR GOODNESS I'M THIRSTY! So we sat there for like 15 minutes drinking little plastic cups of water. One of our most awkward moments, I gotta say. So he dropped me off at my room, like the right guy should, right?
Well I said "Okay...goodnight."
And he said "Wait...don't I at least get a hug?"
So I gave him one of those awkward hugs that's like, half a hug, but EXTREMELY close. Which was gross, because we were both sweaty.
I was SUPER anxious to get out of my drenched clothes into pajamas, which is why I REALLY rushed to get inside.
What I found out later was that when he asked for a hug, he was expecting something more. Again, with my hint reading ability, he was hung out to dry.
I texted Aundi the next morning, to tell her about that night. With all that happened, she said "Was he under the influence of anything???"
And I said "No, he's not like that"
Little did I know that he was like that! His sophomore year (my freshman year, before I knew him) he DID drink.
(Side note--I actually am leaving out a few details in the story, but I figure for telling secrets, I won't tell ALL of them...because he doesn't deserve that)
Ha ha I think the week after that I was talking about how using tongue when...sucking face...is like drinking peoples' spit. Which, if you think about it, it is! So I think I changed his mind on that.
But the day after thescon was the winter party.
Wait wait. I'll back up.
The night that I got home, December 7th, I had to write a song for guitar I. And, I ended up sending it to him over the phone (voice message) because he was my other half...I mean, I told him pretty much everything. So he said "I like you...maybe, maybe not."
Which I took to mean "I don't like you, but I'm letting you down gently"
And I saw him at the "Hope Shines Through" thing. At least, I think that's the Gayla event that it was. And I acted like nothing happened, because I thought that would make it easier to deal with. And he took that to mean that I didn't really like him.
So Winter Blast, the next week, he kept up with "I like Merlow" deal.
And when I dislocated my knee skiing (ouch.), he FLIPPED, even though I was fine.
Like he called me and was telling Kendra that I was hurt, and he seriously FLIPPED OUT. And the week after Winter Blast, December 17th, (yeah I remember dates. I'm lame) he was like I have something to tell you. I have something to tell you!
So he texted me that he wanted to go out with me, and I was like "Umm...I really have to get my mom's permission"
Which really never happened. So I was like "You can't officially ask me out yet. You can't do it YET."
So I finally was just like "Whatever, I'll tell her later. You can OFFICIALLY ask now"
So he was like "Leah Thomas. WILL YOU GO OUT WITH ME?"
Which--please, find real men, guys. Ones that don't ask you out AND dump you over text.
So it was the head-over-heels high school crush/relationship. He actually came over the day after Christmas, and we played Monopoly with my sister (then quit, because she started cheating, BADLY), played UNO (like fifteen rounds. And I think I won twice), and I think tht's pretty much all we did. Then January 23rd, (it was the day after Isaiah's birthday, that's why I remember it), he came over and we--played rockband, played MORE uno, played sonic the hedgehog (for like four hours. straight.), I think I tried to teach him how to play Bioshock, and he didn't get it. But that was the ONE time we kissed. And I really wish we didn't. Because once you invest yourself physically, it's all over from there. I know that a lot more of physicality could've taken place, but I TRULY have seen the hand of God in me saying "Now's not the time." I did that a few times. And I wish that I could've again.
So that night we ended up going to see some play at TR...and it was REALLY good. Of course holding hands with your boyfriend makes it better, but it was actually a good play. And we'd hold hands when we prayed and what not, but we didn't get much further than that.
And then came the breakup!
So a week before I was dumped, he was into the whole "I love you, leah" thing. Or really, "I love you babe"
And I thought "I don't love him. I don't think I'm capable of loving him, and I know I have no intentions of marrying this guy"
So in the end of that night, I cried, and I thought I was convinced that there were "different types" of love.
Which I know there's only two--the love that God uses through you, and the love that God's given you for a single person, to love forever.
So again, a week later, on our two month anniversary thingy thing, three days after Valentines day...it was at first because my Mom STILL didn't know we were dating (even though she did, she was just waiting for me to say something).
I ended up telling her probably five minutes after that text. And turns out, that wasn't the entire issue. It was because "we were better off as friends"
And i know he was trying to be nice, he was trying to let me down easy, but after being convinced that somebody loves you, then dumped to "just be friends"
you get pissed. you become bitter.
And that's exactly what I did. I had come to know him like the back of my hand, and he knew me like...I don't even know what. And it comes back to the whole dilemma that the one who had MADE me cry was the one who used to keep me from crying. And I had NO idea who to talk to. Like, going from telling him everything to not being able to tell him anything. Because I felt betrayed. That he had played with my emotions, and I was stupid enough to fall for it.
So my text to Aundi, the always there psychiatrist went something like this-
Aundi. We broke up. Call me?
And that's pretty much where it started with the story of Nick. I hadn't updated her on this "relationship" other than Thescon, and she had a LOT to learn.
So the first day after being dumped, I felt good. I thought, well now I can go after some other guy (Matt was the one I had in mind. Dear goodness Leah, what are you thinking!?!?)...but I didn't ever want to be hurt like that again. And I know, in a blog, you can't understand how TRULY bitter I was towards him. So every day, it just got worse. It was the weekend of Revolve, which was fun, but I was MISERABLE. It may have seemed like I was alright, but I wasn't at all. I missed being happy...feeling safe in who I am. When the reality was that I put my confidence in who I am in Nick and my relationship with him. I had grown apart from God, and tried to take care of all my problems all by myself.
Because I was going to prove to Nick and everybody else that I could do it on my own. I wasn't weak. And I don't really know when I OFFICIALLY got over him. But I realized that I had to build my relationship with God before I could build it with anybody else. Nick was also VERY distracting at church. That's one of the main lessons I learned!
You have to be VERY strong in faith to date in church. Especially when your boyfriend stands in the choir while you stare at a screen right above his head.
And everybody has to learn all of the lessons themselves. That's how I am ON STEROIDS. I mean, that I can't take advice whatsoever.
What I told Aundi before FINALLY getting over him was "I'm tired of being hurt."
And that was it. So she gave me When Dreams Come True to read. This book TOTALLY changed my perspective on dating. But that's for another blog. Anybody reading this blog should REALLY read this book. It's a love story, and it's not a self-help book whatsoever.So anyway. Another thing I learned from Nick is....that going from friend to girlfriend to friend does NOT happen. You can be friends afterwards, but it's EXTREMELY hard...and it's never the same. There's that line that you can never cross, let alone come close to crossing, that will ALWAYS be there. Nick and I are friends, but there's a lot of touchy subjects between us--such as Thescon, the dance, or anything really about it. (Which he brought up last night. I don't know why) There's also the songs that I WILL never listen to again, because I don't feel that way anymore!
Such as....
"Hot N Cold"
"I'm Yours"
"Lucky"
"1,2,3,4"
"The Way I Am"
"9 in the Afternoon"
and...various others. But they just remind me of how stupid I was.
Well. I think that's about it.
He still kinda avoids me, which is fine. If he wants to do that, then he'll do that.
If you need anymore details that I can supply, leave a comment or something.
Love,
-The Always Lovely Leah
6.13.2009
The surveys we all know and love.
Boredom.
First thing you wash in the shower?
My hair? I don't really know. I think I'm on autopilot in the shower. Isn't that weird?
What color is your favorite hoodie?
green
Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
No. I really wouldn't.
Do you plan outfits?
For church, all the time!
How are you feeling RIGHT now?
Tired. Sunburned. Stupid.
Whats the closest thing to you thats red?
My phone =]
Do you say aim or a-i-m?
a-i-m. That's what it is. If you say AIM, you're....dumb.
Tell me about the last dream you remember having?
I don't think I want to. I have very strange dreams.
Did you meet anybody new today?
Actually yes! Quite a few people.
What are you craving right now?
nothing. I'm actually wanting to brush my teeth...is that a craving?
Do you floss?
Rarely. With braces it's a pain in the butt. A BIG pain in the butt.
What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
Cabbage stew. I don't know why. Or bunnies. ...because they like cabbage?
When was the last time you talked on aim?
Probably like beginning of freshman year
Are you emotional?
Dude...If you know me, you KNOW I'm emotional.
Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
Hmm....I bite and then lick. I think I'm more of a biter though.
Do you like your hair?
Sometimes.
Do you like yourself?
That's a hard one to answer. Sometimes I really wish I was somebody else. Actually, I seem to do that a lot lately. But then I remember that I'm "fearfully and wonderfully made" in the image of God himself, and that he carefully considered and designed everything about me, and that he LOVES every "flaw" I have. So disliking myself is like telling God he didn't make me well enough.
Have you ever met a celebrity?
My mom's cousin is a broadway actres...and her husband was on the kid show Hi-5. So yes. I have.
What are you listening to right now?
Long Shot-Kelly Clarkson
Would you go sky diving?
If I'm not paying, HECK YEAH!
Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush?
Again, If I'm not paying, HECK YEAH! That would be probably one of the best days of my life. Not just everyday do you eat dinner with the last president.
Would you throw potatoes at him?
Ha ha if he threw potatoes at me, sure. But I wouldn't. I respect him much more than that.
Do you rent movies often?
Not at all.
Who sits in behind you in your math class?
Taylor Bakemeyer DID. But school's out fools!
32. Have you made a prank phone call?
I think once in like seventh grade. I'm bad at being a teenager, I know.
Can you count backwards from 74?
Who can't?
Brown or white eggs?
white?
Ever been on a train?
I don't think so.
Ever been in love?
No. Not yet, anyway. You can call me a dreamer, but I KNOW I'll find love.
Do you have a cell-phone?
Indeedy I do.
Are you too forgiving?
What I lack for in forgetting, I make up for in forgiving. I think I'm quick to forgive.
Do you use chap stick?
Indeed. It's my life. I think it's the life and blood of Americans.
Can you use chop sticks?
I can!
Ever have cream puffs?
Rarely. But they're quite scrumptious.
Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect?
That's on my top ten movies list. Thank you for mentioning it, survey creator. I think I just might love you.
What was the last question you asked?
When are you coming home?
What was the last CD you bought?
Elijah bought me All I Ever Wanted.
What is your bus number for school?
My bus WAS 144.
Is your hair curly?
Nope.
Last time you cried?
Last night.
Do looks matter?
I don't disregard them completely, but personality is king in this situation.
Have you ever bought anything from Pac Sun?
INDEED! Not in a long long while though.
Have you ever slapped someone?
Maybe like a playful slap. Not a full on slap.
Favorite time of the year?
summer.
Favorite color?
purple
Are you sarcastic?
NO WAY!
Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people?
Dislike, I think so.
How often do you talk on the phone?
Maybe once every one or two days. Depends on the events of the week.
What is your favorite animal?
It's a tie between meerkats and giant squids. I figure if I have one land animal and one ocean creature, it creates balance, right?
Do you have good vision?
nope.
Can you hula hoop?
YES!
Could you ever forgive a cheater?
Well of course I'd forgive him, but I won't take him back.
Do you have a job?
no =[
Can you handle the truth?
usually
Have you ever crawled through a window?
Hmm....probably. I don't know though.
-The Always Lovely Leah
First thing you wash in the shower?
My hair? I don't really know. I think I'm on autopilot in the shower. Isn't that weird?
What color is your favorite hoodie?
green
Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
No. I really wouldn't.
Do you plan outfits?
For church, all the time!
How are you feeling RIGHT now?
Tired. Sunburned. Stupid.
Whats the closest thing to you thats red?
My phone =]
Do you say aim or a-i-m?
a-i-m. That's what it is. If you say AIM, you're....dumb.
Tell me about the last dream you remember having?
I don't think I want to. I have very strange dreams.
Did you meet anybody new today?
Actually yes! Quite a few people.
What are you craving right now?
nothing. I'm actually wanting to brush my teeth...is that a craving?
Do you floss?
Rarely. With braces it's a pain in the butt. A BIG pain in the butt.
What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
Cabbage stew. I don't know why. Or bunnies. ...because they like cabbage?
When was the last time you talked on aim?
Probably like beginning of freshman year
Are you emotional?
Dude...If you know me, you KNOW I'm emotional.
Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
Hmm....I bite and then lick. I think I'm more of a biter though.
Do you like your hair?
Sometimes.
Do you like yourself?
That's a hard one to answer. Sometimes I really wish I was somebody else. Actually, I seem to do that a lot lately. But then I remember that I'm "fearfully and wonderfully made" in the image of God himself, and that he carefully considered and designed everything about me, and that he LOVES every "flaw" I have. So disliking myself is like telling God he didn't make me well enough.
Have you ever met a celebrity?
My mom's cousin is a broadway actres...and her husband was on the kid show Hi-5. So yes. I have.
What are you listening to right now?
Long Shot-Kelly Clarkson
Would you go sky diving?
If I'm not paying, HECK YEAH!
Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush?
Again, If I'm not paying, HECK YEAH! That would be probably one of the best days of my life. Not just everyday do you eat dinner with the last president.
Would you throw potatoes at him?
Ha ha if he threw potatoes at me, sure. But I wouldn't. I respect him much more than that.
Do you rent movies often?
Not at all.
Who sits in behind you in your math class?
Taylor Bakemeyer DID. But school's out fools!
32. Have you made a prank phone call?
I think once in like seventh grade. I'm bad at being a teenager, I know.
Can you count backwards from 74?
Who can't?
Brown or white eggs?
white?
Ever been on a train?
I don't think so.
Ever been in love?
No. Not yet, anyway. You can call me a dreamer, but I KNOW I'll find love.
Do you have a cell-phone?
Indeedy I do.
Are you too forgiving?
What I lack for in forgetting, I make up for in forgiving. I think I'm quick to forgive.
Do you use chap stick?
Indeed. It's my life. I think it's the life and blood of Americans.
Can you use chop sticks?
I can!
Ever have cream puffs?
Rarely. But they're quite scrumptious.
Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect?
That's on my top ten movies list. Thank you for mentioning it, survey creator. I think I just might love you.
What was the last question you asked?
When are you coming home?
What was the last CD you bought?
Elijah bought me All I Ever Wanted.
What is your bus number for school?
My bus WAS 144.
Is your hair curly?
Nope.
Last time you cried?
Last night.
Do looks matter?
I don't disregard them completely, but personality is king in this situation.
Have you ever bought anything from Pac Sun?
INDEED! Not in a long long while though.
Have you ever slapped someone?
Maybe like a playful slap. Not a full on slap.
Favorite time of the year?
summer.
Favorite color?
purple
Are you sarcastic?
NO WAY!
Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people?
Dislike, I think so.
How often do you talk on the phone?
Maybe once every one or two days. Depends on the events of the week.
What is your favorite animal?
It's a tie between meerkats and giant squids. I figure if I have one land animal and one ocean creature, it creates balance, right?
Do you have good vision?
nope.
Can you hula hoop?
YES!
Could you ever forgive a cheater?
Well of course I'd forgive him, but I won't take him back.
Do you have a job?
no =[
Can you handle the truth?
usually
Have you ever crawled through a window?
Hmm....probably. I don't know though.
-The Always Lovely Leah
Oh darling put the bottle down, you got too much talent
So I just got back from 9-10 girls link group picnic/park...outing? I don't exactly know what to call it. But it was immense fun. If you didn't go...you should be jealous. Especially Amelia, since she went to DUMB parker days!
Again people, I really don't like Parker days.I feel like I haven't done bullets in a while. And after that, I will give you a review on the new Kelly Clarkson CD (yes, I like Kelly Clarkson. Not much anymore, since this album came out), since I feel like SOMEBODY needs to hear about how much of an epic fail this was compared to Thankful, Breakaway, or My December.
Again people, I really don't like Parker days.I feel like I haven't done bullets in a while. And after that, I will give you a review on the new Kelly Clarkson CD (yes, I like Kelly Clarkson. Not much anymore, since this album came out), since I feel like SOMEBODY needs to hear about how much of an epic fail this was compared to Thankful, Breakaway, or My December.
- I'm itchy from Gabby's game that made us lay in the grass. It was a fun game...but I don't enjoy laying in grass.
- I ate like five cookies. That can't be healthy. BUT THEY WERE GOOD!
- I miss Kyra. She needs to come back.
- I feel like singing right now. But I don't know what to sing! What do I sing people?
- Aundi de-haired me at the park. She learned the pain of being blonde and wearing black.
- I'm a jerk when it comes to volleyball =]
- I haven't played my guitar in a REALLY long time. I need to re-form my callusses.
- I don't know how to spell that.
- Get over it.
- I love that everybody's using the Leah bullet system...except Morgan. She's too smart.
- I love getting to know all of my friends through their blogs. You learn a lot. SERIOUSLY.
- Especially from reading mine.
6.12.2009
With eyes that burn like...cigarettes!
So I didn't write a blog yesterday. I pretty much write a blog or two a day...a blog with deep, sometimes profound thoughts, and the occasional survey.
But I thought I should take my birthday off.
So most of the day I did absolutely nothing...made chocolate mousse, watched Aladdin with my sister, went to walmart, ate at panda, had my traditional birthday dinner of linguine & clam sauce, asparagus & hollandaise (I truly don't know how to spell it, sorry) sauce, and a dessert of chocolate mousse.
So then Elijah's like "HEY do you wanna go to Lollicup with Emily?" And I've always wanted to go to Lollicup. So I went! With Emily, Phillip, Kristen, Elijah, and Caitlin. And of course we drove in a compact car. wwwiiittthhh six people. Oops.
So when we got there, there's an IHOP right next to it. So there was what we thought was a cookie standing on the street corner, waving. Turns out it was a chocolate chip pancake, since it was for IHOP and all. Duh. And the word CHARLIE was written on its back. So we ran to go hug it, and it was a lady with a SUUUPPPEEERRR weird voice. Isn't it like the mascot's unspoken rule to remain unspoken? So I was like can I take a picture with you Charlie? And she gave me the most awkward hug ever. This picture is the reminant of that hug. Awkward. But I'm glad that I hugged a giant pancake.
It was difficult to embed this thing. Well, I guess not. Should I do more embedding of pictures?
So I don't think I'll do a profound thought today. Just updating you all on Charlietta.
I thought her name should be Charlene, like "Charlene, I'm Right Behind You", but I guess the name Charlietta just kinda stuck. Again, she was creepy. So creepy that when Elijah hugged her, she hugged him back even harder. Even though it may not look like it in this picture.
And here's a picture of me and Caitlin. I was drinking pina colada flavored and Caitlin had passion fruit. We had a discussion about what a passion fruit looked like. We both have no idea.
I found out that I have a strange obsession with pina colada flavored things.
And Jelly Bellies. Especially Pina Colada flavored Jelly Bellies. Come to think of it, all my favorite jelly bellies are the fruity alcoholic drink flavored ones. Strawberry Daiquiri especially.
Uh-oh.
Pulse link group thing on Saturday...woo! Y'all better be going. Except for Sydney. MEH!
-The Always Lovely Leah
But I thought I should take my birthday off.
So most of the day I did absolutely nothing...made chocolate mousse, watched Aladdin with my sister, went to walmart, ate at panda, had my traditional birthday dinner of linguine & clam sauce, asparagus & hollandaise (I truly don't know how to spell it, sorry) sauce, and a dessert of chocolate mousse.
So then Elijah's like "HEY do you wanna go to Lollicup with Emily?" And I've always wanted to go to Lollicup. So I went! With Emily, Phillip, Kristen, Elijah, and Caitlin. And of course we drove in a compact car. wwwiiittthhh six people. Oops.
So when we got there, there's an IHOP right next to it. So there was what we thought was a cookie standing on the street corner, waving. Turns out it was a chocolate chip pancake, since it was for IHOP and all. Duh. And the word CHARLIE was written on its back. So we ran to go hug it, and it was a lady with a SUUUPPPEEERRR weird voice. Isn't it like the mascot's unspoken rule to remain unspoken? So I was like can I take a picture with you Charlie? And she gave me the most awkward hug ever. This picture is the reminant of that hug. Awkward. But I'm glad that I hugged a giant pancake.
It was difficult to embed this thing. Well, I guess not. Should I do more embedding of pictures?
So I don't think I'll do a profound thought today. Just updating you all on Charlietta.
I thought her name should be Charlene, like "Charlene, I'm Right Behind You", but I guess the name Charlietta just kinda stuck. Again, she was creepy. So creepy that when Elijah hugged her, she hugged him back even harder. Even though it may not look like it in this picture.
And here's a picture of me and Caitlin. I was drinking pina colada flavored and Caitlin had passion fruit. We had a discussion about what a passion fruit looked like. We both have no idea.
I found out that I have a strange obsession with pina colada flavored things.
And Jelly Bellies. Especially Pina Colada flavored Jelly Bellies. Come to think of it, all my favorite jelly bellies are the fruity alcoholic drink flavored ones. Strawberry Daiquiri especially.
Uh-oh.
Pulse link group thing on Saturday...woo! Y'all better be going. Except for Sydney. MEH!
-The Always Lovely Leah
6.10.2009
A whole new world, a dazzling place I never knew
I just finished watching Aladdin for the first time in FOREVER.
It's HILARIOUS. And much to Aundi's dismay, I did NOT cry when Genie was set free.
Ha ha. The bundi-nator who only cries at Disney movies...and the notebook.
SURVEY TIME!
AKA the longest survey known to man
Do you and your boyfriend fight a lot?
considering I don't have one, I don't think it would be possible to fight. But the last boyfriend, we didn't fight a lot, but when we fought, WE FOUGHT. I guess it was...an intense relationship.
Would you have sex with someone you had known less than 24 hours?
Dude. Are you even asking ME that?
Of course not.
Who was the last person you got in a fight with? About what?
I don't really know. I get mad at people, but I RARELY fight. Unless I feel really strongly about something, I'll yell a little bit and then forget it ever happened.
Did you go to sleep happy last night?
Hmmm...yes.
Who did you last say i love you to?
I don't really remember. I think it was the people that read all of my blog. Ha ha ha...
Have you ever slept in contacts?
Dude. I don't wear contacts.
Miss someone?
Yeah...actually. I'm kinda missing Matt a little bit. Again, faithful bloggers will know what I'm talking about.
Are you excited or anxious about anything?
Hmmm...I'm excited I'll be 16 tomorrow...I'm excited to see the link group girlies on Saturday...
Did you kiss or hug anyone today?
I don't think so.
Has anyone told you a secret lately that you aren't allowed to tell anyone?
Hmmm...not really.
Do you have feelings for anyone?
Not really. Maybe like a liiitttllleee smidgen, but not exactly.
How late did you stay up last night?
11ish
Have you ever ridden a horse?
yes. But they still kinda scare me. Okay not scare, but they're....powerful.
Who was the last person you cried in front of?
Hmm...people at church.
You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life, what is it?
Water. Duh.
Have you lost contact with someone you wish you didn't?
Hmm...no.
Do you think you are a good person?
I'd like to think so. I'm not a bad person.
Would you ever live with anyone on your top friends?
(associated with myspace) Hmm....yes. Actually, I think I just might want to live with all of them. Except for Pulse. I don't think I could sleep on those orange couches every night.
Are you a patient person?
I REALLY try to be...just most of the time it doesn't work out.
Are you in a complicated relationship right now?
Nope. And I'm very happy to say that.
Last person you rode in a car with under the age of 20?
Hmm...wow it's been a while. I think Aundi. Or Jared. THAT WAS THE SCARIEST EXPERIENCE OF MY LIFE. Jared, I mean. Aundi's a good driver...but she runs red lights=]
Just kidding. She doesn't.
Can you play guitar hero?
HECK YES!
Name someone that made you laugh today?
Elijah.
How late did you stay up last night and why?
11ish...because I was texting Aundi something. And drawing Hannah a picture.
If you could move somewhere else, would you?
I don't think so. I like it here.
Ever been kissed under fireworks?
HA HA no. But you're very funny.
Which of your friends lives closest to you?
Probably Michelle.
Do you believe exs can be friends?
It's a different kind of friend. It's never the same as it was, obviously. There's that little piece of yourself that they'll never get to see again.
Do you like calling or texting better?
Calling. People don't understand my humor through text >=|
How do you feel about Diet Dr Pepper?
It's...a soda? I don't know.
Where is your biological father right now?
Out to dinner with my Mom.
Where are you at right now?
In the kitchen.
What beds did you sleep in this weekend?
Uh...my bed.
What was the last thing someone bought for you?
My Madre bought me chucks.
Was yesterday better than today?
Hmm...yes. I wasn't in pain.
Are you mad about anything?
There's always something to be mad about, but no.
Do you think relationships are ever really worth it?
Again, not yet. Some are...most aren't.
When was the last time you were extremely disappointed?
I don't really know. Probably when Matt was being a jerk.
Night out or night in?
Depends on who it's with. There's some people I'd like to chill with...some I'd rather let be.
Are you more of an individual or an outgoing person?
I think I'm extremes of both. I'm talkative and like to be with people, but when I'm home, I'm usually in my room reading by myself.
Would you share a drink with a stranger?
Hmm...no. Germs, dude.
Who was the last person you visited in the hospital?
Wow. I haven't visited anybody in a hospital since I was little. What's the matter with me? Why don't you guys ever get hurt so I can visit you?
Do you think its right for straight guys to get their tongue pierced?
Um wow. Right? No. I don't like tongue piercings anyway.
What does the last text message in your inbox say?
Wow who was with you?
How do you feel about your life right now?
It's pretty good!
How many times have you been pulled over by the police?
Zero =] Considering I've never driven before.
Last person you talked to on the phone?
Amelium
Has the last person you kissed met your parents?
Yes. And they loved him, which I always kinda hated.
Do you ever cry during movies?
Dude. Do you know me?
What's your favorite breed of dog?
I like pugs, even though they're kinda weird looking. Beagles are my favorite though, I think.
Who is the first person you see in the mornings?
Hannah.
What do you want more than anything right now?
I kinda wanna sing right now.
Camping or Nice hotel?
Nice hotel. Sorry people that love camping. I've never been.
What color shirt are you wearing?
White. THATS FOR SYDNEY!
Do you think more about the past, present, or future?
I don't know. I seem to dwell in the past a little too much. But I guess a little bit of everything.
Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?
I don't remember, but usually the people that tell me that mean it.
When was the last time you spoke to your brother?
Today. Like a half hour ago.
Who was the last guy you talked to on the phone?
Tommy. But it's been a while.
Do you think anyone has feelings for you?
See above question.
How was your day?
Uneventful.
Outgoing or more reserved?
Hmm...It depends on the crowd. I'm usually pretty outgoing.
What cereal boxes are in your cabinet or pantry?
Do you really want me to go check? Because I'm not going to. If you'd like to know, come to my house and look at them.
What are you listening to?
West Side Story. I'm watching it on TV.
Are you wearing jeans right now?
No! For once!
Do you talk about your feelings or hide them?
Depends on the person. I'm pretty good at hiding them, but the people I tell my feelings are the people that know I'm not okay.
Have you ever received a text message that made you cry?
Well, considering I've been dumped over text message, yes. And I've cried from a text message that I wasn't being dumped through, also.
Are any of your siblings married?
hahaha, no.
Do you swear in front of your parents?
No, I don't swear at all, duh.
Have you ever seen your best friend cry?
Actually no.
When you say you don't care, do you mean it?
Hmm....it depends. Sometimes I do, sometimes I don't.
Do you like your life right now?
Yes. I think so.
When's the last time you talked to your best friend?
This afternoon
Last two people to text you?
Aundi and my mom
Last thing you spent money on?
Hmm....I don't remember. Probably panda.
What's the first thing that pops into your head when you think of last summer?
ApeX. I think that was the highlight of my summer.
What is the last non-alcoholic beverage you had?
Water
Your ex says they never even liked you, you say?
"Psht. You were never a very good liar, were you?"
Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
Hmm...I consider Jesus a man, so yeah.
Are you a fast typer?
PSHT yeah! 94 wpm, baby!
Who did you last see a movie with?
Probably my mom and Elijah.
How was last night?
It was...boring.
Have you ever laughed at something that wasnt meant to be funny?
Ha ha like today when Isaiah kept having the meatball fall on his hand and he'd act like he's burning when it wasn't even hot. And Elijah and I kept saying "Get thee behind me, Satan." You kinda had to be there.
Do people often mistake you for a different nationality?
Nope, I'm pretty white.
Do you have a secret?
Hmm...yes.
Do you think you've changed over the past year?
OH YES.
What hoodie did you wear last?
hmm....I don't remember. Probably my print one from seventh grade.
Are you ticklish?
Yes. But if you tickle me, you're on my bad side already.
Are you wearing something that belongs to someone else?
Nope.
Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
Hmm...I don't know. Perhaps.
Is there anybody you wish you could be spending time with right now?
Yeah kinda. But it's too late.
Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
Hmm...I'm not actually sure.
Do you fall for people easily?
I used to.
Last time you made a bet with someone?
I don't know.
When's the next time you'll see your closest friend?
Sometime in the next week.
What are you doing tonight?
...sleeping, random crap.
Are you happy?
Well, I don't know.
What's your philosophy on the opposite sex?
Simplicity has never been so complicated.
What are you going to do this weekend?
Link group, church, practice for whatnot, church.
Do you always answer your phone?
Actually, yes. Unless I'm sleeping, in the shower, or I can't find it. Or I guess if I'm in the middle of something too.
Do you have a cat?
No. No I do not.
Did you ever waste too much time on a certain boy or girl?
I think I wasted a lot of time on all of them.
Where did your last hug take place?
I don't know. I don't give out hugs like free candy.
Do you have empty bottles of alcohol hidden anywhere?
Again, do you not know me?
Do you find piercings attractive?
Not at all. I mean, on girls, I guess to a point...but on guys, NO.
How old are you?
15 and 364 days.
What does your hair look like?
In a pony tail with multiple bobby pins.
Do you wear glasses?
I do indeed.
Is there a high chance of you going out to the movies soon?
Nope.
Are you easily scared by horror/ thriller films?
OH DEAR GOODNESS YES!
If you had $100 would you spend or save it?
Hmmm...right now, I would spend it on a laptop getting fixed.
If there was a large spider in the room, would you stay?
DUDE. NO.
Do you regret anything you've done lately?
Yeah, kinda.
Do you have trust issues?
Ha ha. This question goes out to Amelia. Sometimes.
Could you date someone taller than you?
Oh goodness. Could I? No. It's impossible.
Sarcasm, bud.
Next time you will see a doctor?
Hopefully not too soon.
Do you have the same name as any of your relatives?
Nope.
Has a girl sat on your bed before?
Obviously. I've sat on my bed.
If you could pack up and leave your life now to move away, would you?
No. Never.
If you were a crayon what color would you be?
Purple. Or macaroni n' cheese.
Who was the last person you called?
Amelia.
What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Probably their smile.
Favorite type of food?
Probably chinese.
What books are you reading?
1984.
-The Always Lovely Leah
It's HILARIOUS. And much to Aundi's dismay, I did NOT cry when Genie was set free.
Ha ha. The bundi-nator who only cries at Disney movies...and the notebook.
SURVEY TIME!
AKA the longest survey known to man
Do you and your boyfriend fight a lot?
considering I don't have one, I don't think it would be possible to fight. But the last boyfriend, we didn't fight a lot, but when we fought, WE FOUGHT. I guess it was...an intense relationship.
Would you have sex with someone you had known less than 24 hours?
Dude. Are you even asking ME that?
Of course not.
Who was the last person you got in a fight with? About what?
I don't really know. I get mad at people, but I RARELY fight. Unless I feel really strongly about something, I'll yell a little bit and then forget it ever happened.
Did you go to sleep happy last night?
Hmmm...yes.
Who did you last say i love you to?
I don't really remember. I think it was the people that read all of my blog. Ha ha ha...
Have you ever slept in contacts?
Dude. I don't wear contacts.
Miss someone?
Yeah...actually. I'm kinda missing Matt a little bit. Again, faithful bloggers will know what I'm talking about.
Are you excited or anxious about anything?
Hmmm...I'm excited I'll be 16 tomorrow...I'm excited to see the link group girlies on Saturday...
Did you kiss or hug anyone today?
I don't think so.
Has anyone told you a secret lately that you aren't allowed to tell anyone?
Hmmm...not really.
Do you have feelings for anyone?
Not really. Maybe like a liiitttllleee smidgen, but not exactly.
How late did you stay up last night?
11ish
Have you ever ridden a horse?
yes. But they still kinda scare me. Okay not scare, but they're....powerful.
Who was the last person you cried in front of?
Hmm...people at church.
You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life, what is it?
Water. Duh.
Have you lost contact with someone you wish you didn't?
Hmm...no.
Do you think you are a good person?
I'd like to think so. I'm not a bad person.
Would you ever live with anyone on your top friends?
(associated with myspace) Hmm....yes. Actually, I think I just might want to live with all of them. Except for Pulse. I don't think I could sleep on those orange couches every night.
Are you a patient person?
I REALLY try to be...just most of the time it doesn't work out.
Are you in a complicated relationship right now?
Nope. And I'm very happy to say that.
Last person you rode in a car with under the age of 20?
Hmm...wow it's been a while. I think Aundi. Or Jared. THAT WAS THE SCARIEST EXPERIENCE OF MY LIFE. Jared, I mean. Aundi's a good driver...but she runs red lights=]
Just kidding. She doesn't.
Can you play guitar hero?
HECK YES!
Name someone that made you laugh today?
Elijah.
How late did you stay up last night and why?
11ish...because I was texting Aundi something. And drawing Hannah a picture.
If you could move somewhere else, would you?
I don't think so. I like it here.
Ever been kissed under fireworks?
HA HA no. But you're very funny.
Which of your friends lives closest to you?
Probably Michelle.
Do you believe exs can be friends?
It's a different kind of friend. It's never the same as it was, obviously. There's that little piece of yourself that they'll never get to see again.
Do you like calling or texting better?
Calling. People don't understand my humor through text >=|
How do you feel about Diet Dr Pepper?
It's...a soda? I don't know.
Where is your biological father right now?
Out to dinner with my Mom.
Where are you at right now?
In the kitchen.
What beds did you sleep in this weekend?
Uh...my bed.
What was the last thing someone bought for you?
My Madre bought me chucks.
Was yesterday better than today?
Hmm...yes. I wasn't in pain.
Are you mad about anything?
There's always something to be mad about, but no.
Do you think relationships are ever really worth it?
Again, not yet. Some are...most aren't.
When was the last time you were extremely disappointed?
I don't really know. Probably when Matt was being a jerk.
Night out or night in?
Depends on who it's with. There's some people I'd like to chill with...some I'd rather let be.
Are you more of an individual or an outgoing person?
I think I'm extremes of both. I'm talkative and like to be with people, but when I'm home, I'm usually in my room reading by myself.
Would you share a drink with a stranger?
Hmm...no. Germs, dude.
Who was the last person you visited in the hospital?
Wow. I haven't visited anybody in a hospital since I was little. What's the matter with me? Why don't you guys ever get hurt so I can visit you?
Do you think its right for straight guys to get their tongue pierced?
Um wow. Right? No. I don't like tongue piercings anyway.
What does the last text message in your inbox say?
Wow who was with you?
How do you feel about your life right now?
It's pretty good!
How many times have you been pulled over by the police?
Zero =] Considering I've never driven before.
Last person you talked to on the phone?
Amelium
Has the last person you kissed met your parents?
Yes. And they loved him, which I always kinda hated.
Do you ever cry during movies?
Dude. Do you know me?
What's your favorite breed of dog?
I like pugs, even though they're kinda weird looking. Beagles are my favorite though, I think.
Who is the first person you see in the mornings?
Hannah.
What do you want more than anything right now?
I kinda wanna sing right now.
Camping or Nice hotel?
Nice hotel. Sorry people that love camping. I've never been.
What color shirt are you wearing?
White. THATS FOR SYDNEY!
Do you think more about the past, present, or future?
I don't know. I seem to dwell in the past a little too much. But I guess a little bit of everything.
Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?
I don't remember, but usually the people that tell me that mean it.
When was the last time you spoke to your brother?
Today. Like a half hour ago.
Who was the last guy you talked to on the phone?
Tommy. But it's been a while.
Do you think anyone has feelings for you?
See above question.
How was your day?
Uneventful.
Outgoing or more reserved?
Hmm...It depends on the crowd. I'm usually pretty outgoing.
What cereal boxes are in your cabinet or pantry?
Do you really want me to go check? Because I'm not going to. If you'd like to know, come to my house and look at them.
What are you listening to?
West Side Story. I'm watching it on TV.
Are you wearing jeans right now?
No! For once!
Do you talk about your feelings or hide them?
Depends on the person. I'm pretty good at hiding them, but the people I tell my feelings are the people that know I'm not okay.
Have you ever received a text message that made you cry?
Well, considering I've been dumped over text message, yes. And I've cried from a text message that I wasn't being dumped through, also.
Are any of your siblings married?
hahaha, no.
Do you swear in front of your parents?
No, I don't swear at all, duh.
Have you ever seen your best friend cry?
Actually no.
When you say you don't care, do you mean it?
Hmm....it depends. Sometimes I do, sometimes I don't.
Do you like your life right now?
Yes. I think so.
When's the last time you talked to your best friend?
This afternoon
Last two people to text you?
Aundi and my mom
Last thing you spent money on?
Hmm....I don't remember. Probably panda.
What's the first thing that pops into your head when you think of last summer?
ApeX. I think that was the highlight of my summer.
What is the last non-alcoholic beverage you had?
Water
Your ex says they never even liked you, you say?
"Psht. You were never a very good liar, were you?"
Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
Hmm...I consider Jesus a man, so yeah.
Are you a fast typer?
PSHT yeah! 94 wpm, baby!
Who did you last see a movie with?
Probably my mom and Elijah.
How was last night?
It was...boring.
Have you ever laughed at something that wasnt meant to be funny?
Ha ha like today when Isaiah kept having the meatball fall on his hand and he'd act like he's burning when it wasn't even hot. And Elijah and I kept saying "Get thee behind me, Satan." You kinda had to be there.
Do people often mistake you for a different nationality?
Nope, I'm pretty white.
Do you have a secret?
Hmm...yes.
Do you think you've changed over the past year?
OH YES.
What hoodie did you wear last?
hmm....I don't remember. Probably my print one from seventh grade.
Are you ticklish?
Yes. But if you tickle me, you're on my bad side already.
Are you wearing something that belongs to someone else?
Nope.
Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
Hmm...I don't know. Perhaps.
Is there anybody you wish you could be spending time with right now?
Yeah kinda. But it's too late.
Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
Hmm...I'm not actually sure.
Do you fall for people easily?
I used to.
Last time you made a bet with someone?
I don't know.
When's the next time you'll see your closest friend?
Sometime in the next week.
What are you doing tonight?
...sleeping, random crap.
Are you happy?
Well, I don't know.
What's your philosophy on the opposite sex?
Simplicity has never been so complicated.
What are you going to do this weekend?
Link group, church, practice for whatnot, church.
Do you always answer your phone?
Actually, yes. Unless I'm sleeping, in the shower, or I can't find it. Or I guess if I'm in the middle of something too.
Do you have a cat?
No. No I do not.
Did you ever waste too much time on a certain boy or girl?
I think I wasted a lot of time on all of them.
Where did your last hug take place?
I don't know. I don't give out hugs like free candy.
Do you have empty bottles of alcohol hidden anywhere?
Again, do you not know me?
Do you find piercings attractive?
Not at all. I mean, on girls, I guess to a point...but on guys, NO.
How old are you?
15 and 364 days.
What does your hair look like?
In a pony tail with multiple bobby pins.
Do you wear glasses?
I do indeed.
Is there a high chance of you going out to the movies soon?
Nope.
Are you easily scared by horror/ thriller films?
OH DEAR GOODNESS YES!
If you had $100 would you spend or save it?
Hmmm...right now, I would spend it on a laptop getting fixed.
If there was a large spider in the room, would you stay?
DUDE. NO.
Do you regret anything you've done lately?
Yeah, kinda.
Do you have trust issues?
Ha ha. This question goes out to Amelia. Sometimes.
Could you date someone taller than you?
Oh goodness. Could I? No. It's impossible.
Sarcasm, bud.
Next time you will see a doctor?
Hopefully not too soon.
Do you have the same name as any of your relatives?
Nope.
Has a girl sat on your bed before?
Obviously. I've sat on my bed.
If you could pack up and leave your life now to move away, would you?
No. Never.
If you were a crayon what color would you be?
Purple. Or macaroni n' cheese.
Who was the last person you called?
Amelia.
What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Probably their smile.
Favorite type of food?
Probably chinese.
What books are you reading?
1984.
-The Always Lovely Leah
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